At least...

Guess what's supposed to fall fell. Nothing much I can do but to endure the 3 weeks ahead. The last straw, will it break the camel's back? Yea. I know, I may have use the proverb in the wrong context but perhaps that's how I see things, how I view my condition. India may not house the finest ivory but the elephants there do have tusks. At the very least I was given a chance to have a closer look at those elephants, not having the chance to ride on them yet. Some say I'm a hypocrite. Perhaps. Perhaps not. My first impulses did appeal to me that my condition was of the utmost unfairness but detailed consideration leads me to the word "at least". Yes! At least, I was able to see the elephants. Tears no longer flood my eyes. But what awaits me in the future is simply unpredictable. I may be able to turn my friends and relatives off, but what about the people who brought me up? Parents? Family? Maybe it's time for me to feel sinful, for failing to ride on those elephants having the finest ivory? Whatever it is, I know I can handle it. At the very least, I was given the chance to apply. I shall not complain.

~the real war begins in 2 days time~