The Untold Truth

The story has no endings. Out of no where, it started. Harold entered the class. It all started with numbers. With the increasing tense as each days goes by, he has no idea on how to move on. The steps to be taken in the future seemed just blur, but it was not fading away, for he has Liz. The saga commenced a month plus ago. At a small pavilion. Liz came with pale red and straight cuts. The day was his happiest of all. Though the answer was beating round the bush, he knows deep in her heart, it showed no sign of reservation. "Praise The Lord!" he said to himself.

Days went by much better than before. Though to meet is kinda hard at times, they both made endless efforts to it. And of course, they did made it lots of times. The holidays ended and the first weekend came with happiness and sweet memories. Looking back, it was a de ja vu. They laid in each others' arms. The feeling portrays warmth in a cold desert. Camels were around but they were not interrupting. In short, they made it! It remained an untold truth to everyone. The sense of repeating beats around in Harold's heart again. Liz might not make it. The sense of fear flooded again.


The Island of Fear faded as the truth unfolds

Harold spotted his name on the list. The points printed were not too bad after all. He managed to place himself in among the excellence. "Thank you Lord, You certainly helped in every inch of my life" he prayed. Liz was happy for him. Their relationship were challenge at times but it actually makes rooms for improvement.

Lessons went on...

Sign of relief 2

The whole scene was a sight of relief. But how far does this scene would last before another disaster comes?It's not total relief but I am still thankful that I was granted this grade. Least Pn. Siti was right. The top 50 of Malaysia is in L.And I was the "lucky" one to be the 50th. Gosh... A minor slip could be fatal. Guess my new year would somehow be a bit brighter. Books are finally my friend these days.Extra efforts on Maths. It's just sequence and series. I just hope and pray that my eagerness would last as long as man can breath.

1st week of school was happy one as i waited anxiously for the weekend to arrive. A 3 days 2 nights that can relax my mind from hard day's work in every 7/52 of the year.It was one memorable and wonderful experience that only we ourselves know. The warmth of family, fun and experience is one of a kind. In TOK classes, love seemed to be my topic of interest. Not sure why but my friends just kept asking am I in love?? Nah... You find that out yourself.

!st aid course soon. Something struck my mind a few days ago to set up a MRCS unit here. Possible? The 1st thing demanded from me was proposal...Talking bout proposal, EE comes in mind. International trips...The unfinished task were endless...

What to do? That's IB!

Pain or vain? Gain or loose? I would give an assurance that it's pain and gain. Somehow, I realized how magnificent is God's creation. Despite the downpour, it did not turn our spirit down. I would say we were more than "eager" to finish the race. a race that would mark a bullet on some of us. 9+2. It was somehow fun, but through that, misunderstanding arises. No conclusion were decided but I am sure it's gonna prolong for quite some time. Indeed, if Joc or jason was there, I bet, they will start preaching. The stones, flowers, faunas... It was nothing less than heaven I guess. Well how do you define heaven? Is it a place of wonder? Or is it just an imagination of human where we like a place to be? I have no say on that. Our efforts were always challenged. the first became the last and vice-versa. It's just kept changing. The second trip seemed more meaningful compared to the first. This time, the learning to treasure every part of friendship took place. Still, there was a little conflict that distracted us from drawing peace. How wonderful is God's creation? Take a jaunt... and you will understand.

How's the bunk beds?

Grace hostel...after several "conflicts"

Energy fill-up

journey starts...

who says it's easy?

we're not fighting...one of a kind support

with the guide

simply magnificent

tats steep

he's damm fast...

energy recharge?

Isn't the waterfall wonderful

the beauty of floras

another beauty spot

highest weather forecast center in Malaysia

Holiday's almost over, what's left for me? A french novel? Lab report perhaps? I somehow have to get it done. CAS report for 30 hours again... sigh...well, least this new year somehow brightened me up as I spent the last day of 06 on the highest spot of SEA. Praise the Lord for granting me the strength to complete the climb. Holiday's over means results coming out. Well, what can I say? I don't know. I guess it's time for me to turn over and storm the front. her grad? walk one step see one step....praying for the best...

Relief...

Thank god...It was mere challenge, which i endure it. A good experience for me at least. Everything is back to norm now, except the scratch which time can heal. Is it words of love? or is it human language. Whatever it is, I know, nothing matters much now because "let bygones be bygones". That's what history are for right? Look on the bright side, it allows us to improve, and who knows? to make a great stride ahead. Standing on the verge of breaking up yesterday truely taught me how words can really turn things out, as what the proverb says, pen is mightier than the sword. True. Well, everything restored. So why shall I worry over it? nah...

Dinner's served. Mom made chicken pie today. not the 1st time. But it was more than good. hm.. nutritious. Too bad, my tummy do not support that high capasity. Guess I'll have it reheated as lunch tomorrow. Sis, mom was "inspired by your effort of making pie in UKR"! ahaks...

This should be able to last for at least two to three days...

delicious? simply...

how words in YM can hurt...

crush... demolished... debris... That's what most likely that is left. after May 07, the days would have been something empty. By that time, exams' just around the corner. Fear draws its potrait. My feelings would be a cocktail. It would be stale. filled with unwanted thoughts and uneasy feelings. It would not be edible, it's mere survival condition. It's hard for m to accept it. But facts are meant to be followed. No one can turn back time. I just hope that second can skip out of my life and make my life easier... all the time, praying for the best...

Prayers Work

Let bygones be bygones. How could I ever accept that? I guess some how I just have to. Exam's just passed. If I take a jaunt back, I would not deny that the outcome is not promising. Have I actually done my best? Or did i just breeze through it? I wonder. Did my laptot distracted me? Or did my new life turned me down? I would say none of them. Commitments are simply endless. Just two weeks ago I came to realised that my sports hours do not meet the requirements. Given the chance to add on, I didn't take it. Simply because the payment is not within my ability. 50 bucks for 20 hours? I really wonder if she's in need for money. Luckily I managed to save that 25 bucks. Talking bout my future, I simply had no idea on where am i heading next. If my sem1 result repeat, Uk might just be another dream. Still, I promised and I must make it there. For all this years, maths never adorn my problem list. These days, I am rushing to keep up with it. Thanks to jocelyn for he prayer lists. And all my CG & CF friends who prayed for all of us juniors. Creski, thanks for the last minute prayer before my BM paper. For the first time, the whole paper went well after almost a week of struggling. Prayers do work. Though I can expect the worst for my maths, still after paper 2, I came out of the exam hall calm. Not sure why, but there seemed no stress at all... Praise the Lord.

Days at KMB seemed to be better. Look from the bright side, i left 3 more sem to go. I just hope I can made it through the whole IB. Hopefully, I can perform in sem 2. Strive for excellence? Do I have a choice? It's simply a must. All I can do is just storm the front. There's no turning back. So whatever I have for sem 1 has to be faced. There's no use of crying over spilt milk. Look ahead and do the best. Hopefully I can do the best! Mus, I cannot promise you to be among the top, but I promise that I will do my best.

Entering the time tunnel, sad days are replaced by happy days. She cheered me up a lot. A new page of life turned. I am glad turned it. Not just that, but I found KMB a better place to live in. Despite the uneasy life and "nice" foods, I found out the moon was one of the nicest I ever seen. Crazy? But I did looked towards the sky, hoping for a silver lining. The bright silver moon ray seemed to hint me good outcomes. Hope so...

Upon arrival in KK, I seemed to miss a lot of stuffs back in KMB. Her, my friends, my life, and my everlasting experience. Hope I can make good use of this holiday. Meeting with cheryl on Monday for maths. The homework just seemd endless. Well afterall, that's IB - EE, Bio Lab, Econs IA, Maths...


Ying and Yang? Nah... Look on the positive side, its always there.


I wonder if it simbolises anythin. I have seen it a few times in the college. Conincides?


The cat that joined us for jogathon.


It was somehow a beginning that leaded to my new life. Who's the prettiest neways?


Believe in church. The last night in Banting in sem1 was simply a memorable one. 1 more sem with joc... Hope she can get over her dilema...believe in Him.

WILL or MUST?

Chem just passed. the last 15 minutes really challenged me both mentally and physically. Thank God I finished till the final letter. I wouldn't cosider my knowledge is just at the tip of ice but the question startled me at half-time. No red-cards were issued but i know my abilities. I would be grateful if it turns out 7. Anything less than 6 seemed quite impossible. It's a HL, so 6 still threaten my applications later. Afterall, its over. The only thing that i can do now is to pray. English and maths is coming up. Will I do well? Even English is launching its spy plane as a sign of threat. I wouldn't deny that my english is merely what I should have. Its a challenge, yet to be tested anytime, anywhere. Maths could just be another nuclear bomb against me. I wouldn't see it as something that i can overlook, coz i just cant. Killer subject? I guess so... Well, thinking back, my problems were gradually eliminated from my short-list. It was some how solved as i did make it into a new life. What's up for next? I would say, just pray for the best. There are ups and downs. Looks like this weekend is not gonna be anything better than the last. I might be goin back in less than 7 days but the extreme burden that i am carrying now do not permit me to think of it at all. It seemed that I won't be goin back anytime sooner but the fact is, I AM! Walk one step, see one step. That's what the proverb says. and that's all i can do. Though the time left is less than a year, i will treasure every moment of it, every second we spend together. Someday we might part, but where the heart is there, what we have inculcated will last forever. Always... The part within me will always be there. I have made my choice and i am firm about it. Nothing can change my perception, my life and my decision. Age might be a problem, but that won't stop me. Back to IB, the 42 is there. Regardless of my ability limitations, i will achive my dreams. It's the confidence that will decide at times. UK is not impossible, and I must make it there. I don't care there are how many options available. What I have is just one, make my parents proud and offer them a sense of relief. I have done enough wrong deeds and i am sure enough even this won't repent. But that's the best I can do and I will do it! Besides all this, i won't forget that special one. I will always get closer. Though IUMC is not within my reach, but I myself will move towards it. that's a promise I give. I MUST make it into the fairland!


even he can do it,why can't I?

Thinking Simple?

Think Simple! That's easy! How far can I justify the truth behind this statement? Or should I say that it's merely a simple principle that certain successful people live with? Well, now that I finally found out that it implies on me, I have no intention to deny it anymore. true enough. At times, a simple question in the exam can actually send me thinking critically. Is it because I was trained to think that way? Or is it just my failure to recognize the aims of question? I wouldn't deny the reason that I am here. and i am pretty sure my reason could be quite embarrassing and different from other peers. Somehow, being trapped in this kinda situation, the only way to get through it is strive, to go for the best in everything. Seeing my seniors' achievements can send me passing out if I am not strong enough. the last time a achieve such glory was years ago, which I can't even state you the exact date! Dad and mom had did their part as parents, brought me to this platform. Now it's probably up to me 100%. to decide and work on my path. Having Him with me in my life indeed enlightened me. It's a sense of belive that draws me closer to Him. Though I am not baptized, I am still proud to be one of his disciples. Anyhow, religion is up to ones' selection. We take what we believe. But why are there humans who doubt and critisise others? we live in a multi-racial country. Mutual respect is essential to keep us together. Why do we doubt each other's believes? Afterall, it's not like we are stepping on each other's head though I can't deny that at certain degree, there will be superior since we are living in an Islamic country-not to specify religion but to mean there's a majority existence. Why can't we just let it be? You pray your way and let me do what I like? Thinking in a simple way, inter-religion war is sure to start. Luckily we don't. I was standing near a holy place of a religion which I don't follow a few days ago. Suprisingly, the speaker was critisising my religion, doubting the holy gospel. My first instinct which arise from my simple way of thinking will reach to a conclusion that's what their religion teaches. It's not that i am taking sides. But i was wondering how much that guy (which i rethink of not to generalize) understand my religion? and worst, you are talking publicly with the speaker which can reach miles away. He's just quoting individual phrases from bible and not looking it as a whole. Well of course in that way, you sure must have misunderstood some part of it! Luckily my gray matters were fast enough to generate enough impulse to send me into critical thinking. Simple thinking? I would use this word on the guy then. Guess he's not using all his five senses to decide. If this goes on, do we have mutual respect? mutual rights? are we still multi-racial country? I can give you a reservation on that. It's a sensitive issue to discuss but if this goes on, we as minority is just living in pain! then what's the meaning of life then?!

Is believe trust? or is it just perception? Justify on that. I bet no perfect answers can be given out on that. After all, words are just our claim. on How we judge it, it's up to us. And my point here is that believes varies across religion. Can't we just live on with our believes as long as we do not go against the law? after all, Malaysia has the law which allows us to choose. But does the law actually being practice in our daily lives? Again, reservation! Well, I know He's there to guide me and enlighten me always. I believe and I trust His preaching, despite so many unreliable weak points that others can point out. True enough, cause now i finally found a new page of story in my life. A story which is yet for me to retell to my future generation. and I am happy with it! Having that someone to walk in my life makes me feel better. I wouldn't know how long it last but i hope it does. I am starting to think of baptism now. With Him around, I now can talk to Him whenever I am sad, or I am down, or share my joy when i am indulging! Jo, u really turned a new page in my life. You're right! KMB is not merely cell after all, there are wonderful people inside. Silver lining exist all the time, so think on the bright side! life's rollercoaster then. There are ups and downs. C'est la vie!


Silver lining can exist in the most critical moments...have faith & believe in oneself.

God's power

seeing is believing... for evry mount that exist, theres always something higher, chinese proverb. I wouldn't deny the true facts underneath these sayings. in fact, its so real that it eventually turns into a lesson, a lesson that changed my life. This could be my 10th terminal. One step back, i was wondering whether this is a bright approach, or merely a mundane platform? A journey to my dreams? or a sense of obligation? To compete is healthy. But izzit true to say to excel is to strive? if its yes, does it mean to strive is to excel? apparently, luck matters. still everything is in God's hand. Every step i take, every particles i breath. Undenyable, He has miraculous power, the power to guide and to help. Since the beginning of time, humans doubt Him. but should I? or should I just belive wut i accept? I am moving ahead to another stop. a stop which mark an end to my 1st sem. There, I would face one of my greatest challenge in life, to get the booking for "the aviary (by patrick)", the flight that will give hope and take me towards my destination. Chem's on early next month. Will I passed through it? Have I done my best in studies? thats the question that i will think about for quite some time... God's everywhere, regardless a the most critical moments, or when we were so indulge that we forgotten Him. the church struck my mind. It took me back to my wish and aims for entering here. Though exam's approaching, it was not too late yet. Praise the Lord! KMB is not a pure prison. there's always a shinning star which i failed to find, which i never bother to find. thanx to jo for the message. u truely woke me up from my dilema. Its not serious but it does make an effect. Malay is a crtitical problem. Stll with God's guidance, I believe i can make it. I believe...

days ahead...

hm... don't feel like blogging actually. 6 days more to go. I am not longing to go back, NOT AT ALL. A step back showed that I surely had not make a very good use of what i have. Well, can't cry over spilt milk. All i can do is just work my best in the following days. So bored!!! I am hungering for new xtvt!! Arg... should have made it to mt kinabalu, if only jeck had returned to sabah.... jerk!... nvm.. days ahead are meant to be faced, hope i can do well in exam...

pre-grad cert.

Time Tunnel

home sweet home. Am i too late? well, at last i am home...feels fresh. going to church later. What can i actually do during the holidays? will i spend it wisely? hope so. Goin to dinesh's dad's hosp for attachment on monday. Hm... guess this should be an ideal time for me to polish up my maths.
thinking back, is IB stressfull enough? YES, i m finding it does. not really hard to cope but the comitment is simply too many, not up to the much level yet. xam's approaching soon. Well, that doesn't mean i have no time for fun? ha?
a step back...

a good challenge- xternal cas @ org asli school

discussion at orang asli school





first aid week- all i can remember is CPR! Well, guess my first aid skills just did not sank. I don't feel regrets for learning it! haha... it's simply useful anywhere, even for increasing emotional bank account... all in all, it was fun and positive feedbacks are received.

ha! Francis & Seng's bday! wow seeing them get tied up is not that fun afterall. felt pity but i won't deny it's a good one! Sherm, the corn baker!

The b'day boys!

some of the tanglungs...economic huh??

wut is this?? hm... these are some (most) of the pork eater in McB....ahaks

sort of like a bit of interrupting huh?
Freakout, Uneasy, NO time! That's what i can describe IB- FUN!

a bright approach or mundane platform?

wheew..... a week passed... leavin on 12.30 flight 2molo.... hm.. homework almost done... study almost complete... did i actually make a good use of this holiday? lets take a step back, computer almost 24/7.. well.. considering i m stuck there with damm slow internet, guess i must have overdo certain stuffs...
next, got simon's mount tinggy done, ok kept my prom... goin 2 get some snacks next...
went 2 someone's wed yesterday... not bad, least i met some of my so called "relatives". wut else? oh ya, i din got my cds done... wut 2 do? guess i ill just have to buy a new cd...

well actually b4 i return, i was craving for prawns and fishes. weird though my appetite just doesn't do its part when i am facing with this food... ha.... guess d mara college must have remould my digestive system...

now that i m goin back.. lets just hope for the best. when will be the next time i go online?? ha.... we'll c.... lets just hope it's a bright approach...

home sweet home...

finally... touch down 12 hrs ago... ha.. I smelled prawns.... guess wut??? mom made blackforest cake 4 me... haha!!! how nice.... HOME SWEET HOME.... lalalalalla... dunno wut 2 blog... but least, homework is calling. Not quite sure which measuring unit to use but i am pretty sure that tera is not enough...
met nicholas pang... one of the whiz kid... hm... not bad, least i knew there are some ppl who share the same interest as me... good sign? or just bare a normal day ahead? it's just hard to say.... by all means, got to go 4 dinner...yum yum.. seafooooooooooooodddddddddsssss

i'd like some of these...

home....

phew.. last day ed... what shall i head for next?? seafoods?? nice foods? or just foods? hm...having a free period now......glad so coz it allows me 2 blog... leavin 4 bki at 9pm 2molo.. hope everyting turns well... bon voyage 4 me!! ahaks.... guess i will have to be steadfast in my studies.... so most probably i will be bringin some ***** back 2 *****... ai.. is this a holiday?? or just another word for study leave?? i duno...

might be goin off 2 get some cas hours wit blub in papar.. hope everything can goes well.. at least 20 hrs pls... haha... izzit that easy?? anyhow... no harm having a hope...

went to church on tuesday... feast of assumption. was suppposed 2 go for toastmaster but i just can't fork out enough dough 2 pay 4 d bills... guess i have been spending quite a lot these day.. got 2 save lar..

hm.. longing 2 go bck lar..... less than 24 hrs.....

orang asli

here r some of d things we did in org asli skull....

hm... goin 2 church 2molo... will things turn out well 4 me d following week?? hope so la... might be goin 2 tesco oso... hm... tesco really reminds me of servay... makes me miss sabah so much. the seafoodssss, big prawns, big fish!!! yum yum.... yes!!! 2 more weeks 2 go and i will step into the land below the wind again!!! i m longing 4 tat day.

went to watch "wangi jadi saksi" at DBP. first time watching a play. interesting. It retold Hang tuah's story from a woman's point of view. Something new for me. Well at least that 35 bucks did worth while.

Akisah bermulanya....

Dibintangi oleh

So kecian la tis woman....

new language

whew... finally i had time to serve the blog... serve??? really?? hm.. guess so... life's great so far... subjects are challenging. imagine i had to take sastera!!! an!! tat's d last subject i would ever choose( if i was given a choice). Even now i have to take economics. Somehow, it's new to me but surely, i can try!!! TRY!!! but it's one of the flying condition!... sort of like it but it really blow my head off when it comes 2 question... arg...... I WANT MY LAPTOP!!!! i wonder if stew is having a hard time in kedah??...wakakakkaka...... hm....these days i m starting to get used to euphamism(forgot how 2 spell)eg: elite specialized center for emotionaly and behavorialy challenged persons...a.k.a. mental hospital la! haha, sis, soon i m gonna speak a "foreign" languagge that u will NEVER understand! ahaks.... neways... guess that's all 4 now... in d library wat!!! sure can't stay long la...

life here's Great but STUFFY!

hm... at last!! i have got time 2 blog... or should i say, i managed 2 help others 2 use their laptop 2 blog?? Wut m i talking about? nvm...skull lifE? ok ok la... back 2 those life in mrsm.... but here, d non muslims of course is much lesser than those days.. most of the nons r chinese... damm smart... guess i should put in xtra effort 2 et tat 45 points... class mate r sort of like wonderfull.. hm guess wut? i oso got a 15As kid in my class... damm smart!!! wonder wut he ate. Did he boiled the book 4 soup? or did he had xtra side dishes in d form of alphabets?..i wonder....

hm... at times, i really wonder, how should i go on with another 2 yrs here... anyhw, its a challenge 4 me... at least, i go 2 church more often here... hm... obligation or wuT? mayb its instinct i guess... Suprised here too, i found english a hard subject here... lots of sarcastic words... hm.. still, got to manage it well... with addition of Tok wouldn't be anyting nicer... more jobs, more tasks...everyday nothin more than presentations...

hm... now no more credit hours, but there comes cas hours...can i make it? guess so.,.. oh ya, i m goin 2 an orang asli skull 4 community service in a month or so... guess it would be a good xperience 4 me... hm... hope so.,.. but d seniors words did not show anything nice... hm...

IT/Biz/econs? well, too late 2 say but i took up econs... sumthin new 4 me... much 2 learn... hope i can make it... tats all... take a walk in2 MARA COLLEGE BANTING...


Welcome 2 MARA College Banting...


taking IB under IBO (2yrs Diploma)


classrooms...wireless available here...


bird eye view. Not really? Look, I can't fly ok?


Sports? anyting here....

well, guess tats all 4 tis tym....

Bye bye matric, Welcome MARA

finally!!! i hav got d scholarship by mara! yeah!!! now, i can take a break in KMPp.... its so fun while watchin others strive!! haha.... going down to KM banting soon... not so sure where i'll head next after d 2 yrs in banting (mosty probably western countries), but juz let tym decide...hm... days hav been quite fun recently.. went to class as usual but do not need to strive to hard yet...Now tat i get d scholarship, i shall be a PURE chinese, not bumiputrea liao...ahaks!!!
hm... when shall i get my RM1k??? i m longing 4 tat....this government is always like tat, collect money fast, giv money slow...ai...... wait till i get it, then i will say bye bye to matric... hah... tis is d 8th skull tat i hav eva been 2 in my life... and comin up 2 9th soon.. haha.... hopefully, i can stay till d 10th!

sis's bday: happy bday dude! ya i m serious! u r hair relly looks WEIRD!!!! r u sort of like africens or wut?? :-P heh...jk only....

btw, i caught tis ineresting: