ROOM 52: March 2008

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Taking a break from battle

What sleeping late has to offer: first i woke up late. Supposed to attend mass but was late for the van. Fine, i'll take the bus and get there myself. Walked through the bigger alley and waited for bus under the bright sun. Sweat sweat and sweat. Boarded bus after twenty minutes of sweats. Tried to stop the bus at Teluk Datuk but the 'beep' malfunctioned. Landed in Banting alone. And the least of enjoyment i had was the roti telur and teh tarik.

38 days away. Gosh... Time really flies. Soon, the one-month struggle will begin. Hopefully, i'll make it through. As of now, i still find lots of room for improvements. Hardwork is essentially needed!

Laptop will be off my hands in less than a month's time. He needs it more, thus he shall have it. Second thought, at least i can keep my hands and heads off the distraction. With that, i'm left with my cell phone to connect me with the rest of the world. Thank God! *salute the cell phone producers!

Did not attend the Majlis Restu. Had my study-sleep session instead. Have some reservations with the idea of coupon-lunch. Cheapsket! Muyih sent a bottle of blessed water to my room. Still wondering what to do with it. Jeck is clueless either.

Something to ponder about: what seemed to be a close friendship can really deteriorate. What seemed to be a saga appears to be short story, and as usual, it ends with a moral value. The colorfull photos only portray fading shadow at this point. Will our paths crossed again? Perhaps it's taking a break. At least we know each other's location.

Taking a short break from blogging...

Friday, March 28, 2008

As the preparation saga begins...

With our barely prepared mindset, perhaps a mind packed with the necessary knowledge, optimistic spirit, top-ed with notes that took over months to prepare, we are set to go... The song sings 'if we hold on together' yep, to work in group. I've come so far, so why not finish the race? If 40 have been a result of 28, so why can't a 39 been made to be 45? (Despite knowing where my standard really is) YES I CAN! With His guidance and blessing, i'll walk the path enlightened by Him. I just hope i will say the same phrases when i finish the all-seemed-perpetual race...

Saturday, March 15, 2008

At least...

Guess what's supposed to fall fell. Nothing much I can do but to endure the 3 weeks ahead. The last straw, will it break the camel's back? Yea. I know, I may have use the proverb in the wrong context but perhaps that's how I see things, how I view my condition. India may not house the finest ivory but the elephants there do have tusks. At the very least I was given a chance to have a closer look at those elephants, not having the chance to ride on them yet. Some say I'm a hypocrite. Perhaps. Perhaps not. My first impulses did appeal to me that my condition was of the utmost unfairness but detailed consideration leads me to the word "at least". Yes! At least, I was able to see the elephants. Tears no longer flood my eyes. But what awaits me in the future is simply unpredictable. I may be able to turn my friends and relatives off, but what about the people who brought me up? Parents? Family? Maybe it's time for me to feel sinful, for failing to ride on those elephants having the finest ivory? Whatever it is, I know I can handle it. At the very least, I was given the chance to apply. I shall not complain.

~the real war begins in 2 days time~