Relief...

Thank god...It was mere challenge, which i endure it. A good experience for me at least. Everything is back to norm now, except the scratch which time can heal. Is it words of love? or is it human language. Whatever it is, I know, nothing matters much now because "let bygones be bygones". That's what history are for right? Look on the bright side, it allows us to improve, and who knows? to make a great stride ahead. Standing on the verge of breaking up yesterday truely taught me how words can really turn things out, as what the proverb says, pen is mightier than the sword. True. Well, everything restored. So why shall I worry over it? nah...

Dinner's served. Mom made chicken pie today. not the 1st time. But it was more than good. hm.. nutritious. Too bad, my tummy do not support that high capasity. Guess I'll have it reheated as lunch tomorrow. Sis, mom was "inspired by your effort of making pie in UKR"! ahaks...

This should be able to last for at least two to three days...

delicious? simply...

how words in YM can hurt...

crush... demolished... debris... That's what most likely that is left. after May 07, the days would have been something empty. By that time, exams' just around the corner. Fear draws its potrait. My feelings would be a cocktail. It would be stale. filled with unwanted thoughts and uneasy feelings. It would not be edible, it's mere survival condition. It's hard for m to accept it. But facts are meant to be followed. No one can turn back time. I just hope that second can skip out of my life and make my life easier... all the time, praying for the best...

Prayers Work

Let bygones be bygones. How could I ever accept that? I guess some how I just have to. Exam's just passed. If I take a jaunt back, I would not deny that the outcome is not promising. Have I actually done my best? Or did i just breeze through it? I wonder. Did my laptot distracted me? Or did my new life turned me down? I would say none of them. Commitments are simply endless. Just two weeks ago I came to realised that my sports hours do not meet the requirements. Given the chance to add on, I didn't take it. Simply because the payment is not within my ability. 50 bucks for 20 hours? I really wonder if she's in need for money. Luckily I managed to save that 25 bucks. Talking bout my future, I simply had no idea on where am i heading next. If my sem1 result repeat, Uk might just be another dream. Still, I promised and I must make it there. For all this years, maths never adorn my problem list. These days, I am rushing to keep up with it. Thanks to jocelyn for he prayer lists. And all my CG & CF friends who prayed for all of us juniors. Creski, thanks for the last minute prayer before my BM paper. For the first time, the whole paper went well after almost a week of struggling. Prayers do work. Though I can expect the worst for my maths, still after paper 2, I came out of the exam hall calm. Not sure why, but there seemed no stress at all... Praise the Lord.

Days at KMB seemed to be better. Look from the bright side, i left 3 more sem to go. I just hope I can made it through the whole IB. Hopefully, I can perform in sem 2. Strive for excellence? Do I have a choice? It's simply a must. All I can do is just storm the front. There's no turning back. So whatever I have for sem 1 has to be faced. There's no use of crying over spilt milk. Look ahead and do the best. Hopefully I can do the best! Mus, I cannot promise you to be among the top, but I promise that I will do my best.

Entering the time tunnel, sad days are replaced by happy days. She cheered me up a lot. A new page of life turned. I am glad turned it. Not just that, but I found KMB a better place to live in. Despite the uneasy life and "nice" foods, I found out the moon was one of the nicest I ever seen. Crazy? But I did looked towards the sky, hoping for a silver lining. The bright silver moon ray seemed to hint me good outcomes. Hope so...

Upon arrival in KK, I seemed to miss a lot of stuffs back in KMB. Her, my friends, my life, and my everlasting experience. Hope I can make good use of this holiday. Meeting with cheryl on Monday for maths. The homework just seemd endless. Well afterall, that's IB - EE, Bio Lab, Econs IA, Maths...


Ying and Yang? Nah... Look on the positive side, its always there.


I wonder if it simbolises anythin. I have seen it a few times in the college. Conincides?


The cat that joined us for jogathon.


It was somehow a beginning that leaded to my new life. Who's the prettiest neways?


Believe in church. The last night in Banting in sem1 was simply a memorable one. 1 more sem with joc... Hope she can get over her dilema...believe in Him.

WILL or MUST?

Chem just passed. the last 15 minutes really challenged me both mentally and physically. Thank God I finished till the final letter. I wouldn't cosider my knowledge is just at the tip of ice but the question startled me at half-time. No red-cards were issued but i know my abilities. I would be grateful if it turns out 7. Anything less than 6 seemed quite impossible. It's a HL, so 6 still threaten my applications later. Afterall, its over. The only thing that i can do now is to pray. English and maths is coming up. Will I do well? Even English is launching its spy plane as a sign of threat. I wouldn't deny that my english is merely what I should have. Its a challenge, yet to be tested anytime, anywhere. Maths could just be another nuclear bomb against me. I wouldn't see it as something that i can overlook, coz i just cant. Killer subject? I guess so... Well, thinking back, my problems were gradually eliminated from my short-list. It was some how solved as i did make it into a new life. What's up for next? I would say, just pray for the best. There are ups and downs. Looks like this weekend is not gonna be anything better than the last. I might be goin back in less than 7 days but the extreme burden that i am carrying now do not permit me to think of it at all. It seemed that I won't be goin back anytime sooner but the fact is, I AM! Walk one step, see one step. That's what the proverb says. and that's all i can do. Though the time left is less than a year, i will treasure every moment of it, every second we spend together. Someday we might part, but where the heart is there, what we have inculcated will last forever. Always... The part within me will always be there. I have made my choice and i am firm about it. Nothing can change my perception, my life and my decision. Age might be a problem, but that won't stop me. Back to IB, the 42 is there. Regardless of my ability limitations, i will achive my dreams. It's the confidence that will decide at times. UK is not impossible, and I must make it there. I don't care there are how many options available. What I have is just one, make my parents proud and offer them a sense of relief. I have done enough wrong deeds and i am sure enough even this won't repent. But that's the best I can do and I will do it! Besides all this, i won't forget that special one. I will always get closer. Though IUMC is not within my reach, but I myself will move towards it. that's a promise I give. I MUST make it into the fairland!


even he can do it,why can't I?

Thinking Simple?

Think Simple! That's easy! How far can I justify the truth behind this statement? Or should I say that it's merely a simple principle that certain successful people live with? Well, now that I finally found out that it implies on me, I have no intention to deny it anymore. true enough. At times, a simple question in the exam can actually send me thinking critically. Is it because I was trained to think that way? Or is it just my failure to recognize the aims of question? I wouldn't deny the reason that I am here. and i am pretty sure my reason could be quite embarrassing and different from other peers. Somehow, being trapped in this kinda situation, the only way to get through it is strive, to go for the best in everything. Seeing my seniors' achievements can send me passing out if I am not strong enough. the last time a achieve such glory was years ago, which I can't even state you the exact date! Dad and mom had did their part as parents, brought me to this platform. Now it's probably up to me 100%. to decide and work on my path. Having Him with me in my life indeed enlightened me. It's a sense of belive that draws me closer to Him. Though I am not baptized, I am still proud to be one of his disciples. Anyhow, religion is up to ones' selection. We take what we believe. But why are there humans who doubt and critisise others? we live in a multi-racial country. Mutual respect is essential to keep us together. Why do we doubt each other's believes? Afterall, it's not like we are stepping on each other's head though I can't deny that at certain degree, there will be superior since we are living in an Islamic country-not to specify religion but to mean there's a majority existence. Why can't we just let it be? You pray your way and let me do what I like? Thinking in a simple way, inter-religion war is sure to start. Luckily we don't. I was standing near a holy place of a religion which I don't follow a few days ago. Suprisingly, the speaker was critisising my religion, doubting the holy gospel. My first instinct which arise from my simple way of thinking will reach to a conclusion that's what their religion teaches. It's not that i am taking sides. But i was wondering how much that guy (which i rethink of not to generalize) understand my religion? and worst, you are talking publicly with the speaker which can reach miles away. He's just quoting individual phrases from bible and not looking it as a whole. Well of course in that way, you sure must have misunderstood some part of it! Luckily my gray matters were fast enough to generate enough impulse to send me into critical thinking. Simple thinking? I would use this word on the guy then. Guess he's not using all his five senses to decide. If this goes on, do we have mutual respect? mutual rights? are we still multi-racial country? I can give you a reservation on that. It's a sensitive issue to discuss but if this goes on, we as minority is just living in pain! then what's the meaning of life then?!

Is believe trust? or is it just perception? Justify on that. I bet no perfect answers can be given out on that. After all, words are just our claim. on How we judge it, it's up to us. And my point here is that believes varies across religion. Can't we just live on with our believes as long as we do not go against the law? after all, Malaysia has the law which allows us to choose. But does the law actually being practice in our daily lives? Again, reservation! Well, I know He's there to guide me and enlighten me always. I believe and I trust His preaching, despite so many unreliable weak points that others can point out. True enough, cause now i finally found a new page of story in my life. A story which is yet for me to retell to my future generation. and I am happy with it! Having that someone to walk in my life makes me feel better. I wouldn't know how long it last but i hope it does. I am starting to think of baptism now. With Him around, I now can talk to Him whenever I am sad, or I am down, or share my joy when i am indulging! Jo, u really turned a new page in my life. You're right! KMB is not merely cell after all, there are wonderful people inside. Silver lining exist all the time, so think on the bright side! life's rollercoaster then. There are ups and downs. C'est la vie!


Silver lining can exist in the most critical moments...have faith & believe in oneself.

God's power

seeing is believing... for evry mount that exist, theres always something higher, chinese proverb. I wouldn't deny the true facts underneath these sayings. in fact, its so real that it eventually turns into a lesson, a lesson that changed my life. This could be my 10th terminal. One step back, i was wondering whether this is a bright approach, or merely a mundane platform? A journey to my dreams? or a sense of obligation? To compete is healthy. But izzit true to say to excel is to strive? if its yes, does it mean to strive is to excel? apparently, luck matters. still everything is in God's hand. Every step i take, every particles i breath. Undenyable, He has miraculous power, the power to guide and to help. Since the beginning of time, humans doubt Him. but should I? or should I just belive wut i accept? I am moving ahead to another stop. a stop which mark an end to my 1st sem. There, I would face one of my greatest challenge in life, to get the booking for "the aviary (by patrick)", the flight that will give hope and take me towards my destination. Chem's on early next month. Will I passed through it? Have I done my best in studies? thats the question that i will think about for quite some time... God's everywhere, regardless a the most critical moments, or when we were so indulge that we forgotten Him. the church struck my mind. It took me back to my wish and aims for entering here. Though exam's approaching, it was not too late yet. Praise the Lord! KMB is not a pure prison. there's always a shinning star which i failed to find, which i never bother to find. thanx to jo for the message. u truely woke me up from my dilema. Its not serious but it does make an effect. Malay is a crtitical problem. Stll with God's guidance, I believe i can make it. I believe...

days ahead...

hm... don't feel like blogging actually. 6 days more to go. I am not longing to go back, NOT AT ALL. A step back showed that I surely had not make a very good use of what i have. Well, can't cry over spilt milk. All i can do is just work my best in the following days. So bored!!! I am hungering for new xtvt!! Arg... should have made it to mt kinabalu, if only jeck had returned to sabah.... jerk!... nvm.. days ahead are meant to be faced, hope i can do well in exam...

pre-grad cert.

Time Tunnel

home sweet home. Am i too late? well, at last i am home...feels fresh. going to church later. What can i actually do during the holidays? will i spend it wisely? hope so. Goin to dinesh's dad's hosp for attachment on monday. Hm... guess this should be an ideal time for me to polish up my maths.
thinking back, is IB stressfull enough? YES, i m finding it does. not really hard to cope but the comitment is simply too many, not up to the much level yet. xam's approaching soon. Well, that doesn't mean i have no time for fun? ha?
a step back...

a good challenge- xternal cas @ org asli school

discussion at orang asli school





first aid week- all i can remember is CPR! Well, guess my first aid skills just did not sank. I don't feel regrets for learning it! haha... it's simply useful anywhere, even for increasing emotional bank account... all in all, it was fun and positive feedbacks are received.

ha! Francis & Seng's bday! wow seeing them get tied up is not that fun afterall. felt pity but i won't deny it's a good one! Sherm, the corn baker!

The b'day boys!

some of the tanglungs...economic huh??

wut is this?? hm... these are some (most) of the pork eater in McB....ahaks

sort of like a bit of interrupting huh?
Freakout, Uneasy, NO time! That's what i can describe IB- FUN!

a bright approach or mundane platform?

wheew..... a week passed... leavin on 12.30 flight 2molo.... hm.. homework almost done... study almost complete... did i actually make a good use of this holiday? lets take a step back, computer almost 24/7.. well.. considering i m stuck there with damm slow internet, guess i must have overdo certain stuffs...
next, got simon's mount tinggy done, ok kept my prom... goin 2 get some snacks next...
went 2 someone's wed yesterday... not bad, least i met some of my so called "relatives". wut else? oh ya, i din got my cds done... wut 2 do? guess i ill just have to buy a new cd...

well actually b4 i return, i was craving for prawns and fishes. weird though my appetite just doesn't do its part when i am facing with this food... ha.... guess d mara college must have remould my digestive system...

now that i m goin back.. lets just hope for the best. when will be the next time i go online?? ha.... we'll c.... lets just hope it's a bright approach...

home sweet home...

finally... touch down 12 hrs ago... ha.. I smelled prawns.... guess wut??? mom made blackforest cake 4 me... haha!!! how nice.... HOME SWEET HOME.... lalalalalla... dunno wut 2 blog... but least, homework is calling. Not quite sure which measuring unit to use but i am pretty sure that tera is not enough...
met nicholas pang... one of the whiz kid... hm... not bad, least i knew there are some ppl who share the same interest as me... good sign? or just bare a normal day ahead? it's just hard to say.... by all means, got to go 4 dinner...yum yum.. seafooooooooooooodddddddddsssss

i'd like some of these...

home....

phew.. last day ed... what shall i head for next?? seafoods?? nice foods? or just foods? hm...having a free period now......glad so coz it allows me 2 blog... leavin 4 bki at 9pm 2molo.. hope everyting turns well... bon voyage 4 me!! ahaks.... guess i will have to be steadfast in my studies.... so most probably i will be bringin some ***** back 2 *****... ai.. is this a holiday?? or just another word for study leave?? i duno...

might be goin off 2 get some cas hours wit blub in papar.. hope everything can goes well.. at least 20 hrs pls... haha... izzit that easy?? anyhow... no harm having a hope...

went to church on tuesday... feast of assumption. was suppposed 2 go for toastmaster but i just can't fork out enough dough 2 pay 4 d bills... guess i have been spending quite a lot these day.. got 2 save lar..

hm.. longing 2 go bck lar..... less than 24 hrs.....

orang asli

here r some of d things we did in org asli skull....

hm... goin 2 church 2molo... will things turn out well 4 me d following week?? hope so la... might be goin 2 tesco oso... hm... tesco really reminds me of servay... makes me miss sabah so much. the seafoodssss, big prawns, big fish!!! yum yum.... yes!!! 2 more weeks 2 go and i will step into the land below the wind again!!! i m longing 4 tat day.

went to watch "wangi jadi saksi" at DBP. first time watching a play. interesting. It retold Hang tuah's story from a woman's point of view. Something new for me. Well at least that 35 bucks did worth while.

Akisah bermulanya....

Dibintangi oleh

So kecian la tis woman....

new language

whew... finally i had time to serve the blog... serve??? really?? hm.. guess so... life's great so far... subjects are challenging. imagine i had to take sastera!!! an!! tat's d last subject i would ever choose( if i was given a choice). Even now i have to take economics. Somehow, it's new to me but surely, i can try!!! TRY!!! but it's one of the flying condition!... sort of like it but it really blow my head off when it comes 2 question... arg...... I WANT MY LAPTOP!!!! i wonder if stew is having a hard time in kedah??...wakakakkaka...... hm....these days i m starting to get used to euphamism(forgot how 2 spell)eg: elite specialized center for emotionaly and behavorialy challenged persons...a.k.a. mental hospital la! haha, sis, soon i m gonna speak a "foreign" languagge that u will NEVER understand! ahaks.... neways... guess that's all 4 now... in d library wat!!! sure can't stay long la...

life here's Great but STUFFY!

hm... at last!! i have got time 2 blog... or should i say, i managed 2 help others 2 use their laptop 2 blog?? Wut m i talking about? nvm...skull lifE? ok ok la... back 2 those life in mrsm.... but here, d non muslims of course is much lesser than those days.. most of the nons r chinese... damm smart... guess i should put in xtra effort 2 et tat 45 points... class mate r sort of like wonderfull.. hm guess wut? i oso got a 15As kid in my class... damm smart!!! wonder wut he ate. Did he boiled the book 4 soup? or did he had xtra side dishes in d form of alphabets?..i wonder....

hm... at times, i really wonder, how should i go on with another 2 yrs here... anyhw, its a challenge 4 me... at least, i go 2 church more often here... hm... obligation or wuT? mayb its instinct i guess... Suprised here too, i found english a hard subject here... lots of sarcastic words... hm.. still, got to manage it well... with addition of Tok wouldn't be anyting nicer... more jobs, more tasks...everyday nothin more than presentations...

hm... now no more credit hours, but there comes cas hours...can i make it? guess so.,.. oh ya, i m goin 2 an orang asli skull 4 community service in a month or so... guess it would be a good xperience 4 me... hm... hope so.,.. but d seniors words did not show anything nice... hm...

IT/Biz/econs? well, too late 2 say but i took up econs... sumthin new 4 me... much 2 learn... hope i can make it... tats all... take a walk in2 MARA COLLEGE BANTING...


Welcome 2 MARA College Banting...


taking IB under IBO (2yrs Diploma)


classrooms...wireless available here...


bird eye view. Not really? Look, I can't fly ok?


Sports? anyting here....

well, guess tats all 4 tis tym....

Bye bye matric, Welcome MARA

finally!!! i hav got d scholarship by mara! yeah!!! now, i can take a break in KMPp.... its so fun while watchin others strive!! haha.... going down to KM banting soon... not so sure where i'll head next after d 2 yrs in banting (mosty probably western countries), but juz let tym decide...hm... days hav been quite fun recently.. went to class as usual but do not need to strive to hard yet...Now tat i get d scholarship, i shall be a PURE chinese, not bumiputrea liao...ahaks!!!
hm... when shall i get my RM1k??? i m longing 4 tat....this government is always like tat, collect money fast, giv money slow...ai...... wait till i get it, then i will say bye bye to matric... hah... tis is d 8th skull tat i hav eva been 2 in my life... and comin up 2 9th soon.. haha.... hopefully, i can stay till d 10th!

sis's bday: happy bday dude! ya i m serious! u r hair relly looks WEIRD!!!! r u sort of like africens or wut?? :-P heh...jk only....

btw, i caught tis ineresting:

Current Life

entered KMPP- kolej matrikulasi pulau pinang. sum call it kolej matric paling popular @ pilihan pertama... qorientation week juz passed...managed 2 change my course frm physical 2 bio.. thank god...quite a lot of chinese here... not bad.. room is quite big... but d fan is damm slow...so damm hot at nite.. facilities are at excellent grade... well, now i wouldn't have any excuse to break the rule coz we can go out evry week... but where can i go? haha...wats more, not much restriction were made on clothes. class starts frm 8 and ends 4... whew... thank god d tym is not tat pack... but xam is juz around d corner... everyting is at fast pace....
heard rumours that i obtain the mara ting... izzit true? i hope so...tats my greatest dream! hope i can cabut wit tat rm1k la....haha...
neways, cant blog much tis days coz i hardly hav tym....

Interesting Names

woke up quite early 2day... gone throgh some studies on maths and chemistry... Well, actually ther's nothin much 4 me 2 write but my hands just drew me to the comp...what to do?? another boring day... well, got sum prob here... will i be able to handle wel with my new surroundings in PMC l8er? all all them r speaking melayu utara.. gosh! got to start speaking another language again....hm... read the news juz now...only now i know Uitm also stands 4 uni ini tolong/tempat melayu....ahaks! so tat means MRSM goes for maktab ramai student melayu? true?? haha... in west malaysia, definate! here? not that bad la... but still, almost all bumiputra..

Wait, thinkin back, i might have another option besides PMC... will i get the UM PASUM? erm... if i do, then i do not need to face with those penguins again... theni will be base in kl... anyway, 11th May will tell... meanwhile, i could just wait...

bon voyage...

12pm to 4pm marked a long hot day today... hm... tried to post in d mornin but all of sudden the comp went blackout... much regreted of not havin a backup aps...
hm... had dinner with tai chong they all yesterday.. well, kk is nothin much to them considering their advance city in hk... hm... previously, the shao er that they brought all d way frm hk was damm nice! yum yum... reminds me of those days when i last visited hk... as for d dinner, it DID suprise them! the awesome dish that local restaurant offer to them indeed impressed them despite hk is actually a heaven of foods. at the same time, learned a new type of dish, not to cook but to order. ginger crab! its nice! sis, u can try. its sumthin like jiang chong yi pien but in tis case, its crab. whew, these hk ppl indeed r creative!






hm.. thinkin back tai chong is the same generation as me. Gosh! he's like 40 yrs old older than me! hm... considering he's havin "tai" also in his name...

well, today will be the last day we r seeing them...after suffering for more than 3 hrs in home made sauna, we were finally off to town as dad came back... met them(tai chong) at the hotel just before they left for dinner with other relatives. supposed tomorrow they will leave on early flight.Bon voyage! at times, i m starting to realised that our family is so big! haha...

will be off to penang soon. hm.. will matric be a promising terminal? or just another hard-to-adapt platform? i il c...

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Tommorrow marked one of my last visits to mrsm. Will I ever step in there again? Or would the school just fades away gradually from my memories? Only time can tell. Well, finally. after almost 4 months parting with my old friends, i m going to meet them again tommorrow! hm... Zamrudianz r d bez! Miz u guys a lot! I look foward for tommorrow!~

praying...

WORRY AND STRESS SAGA... that would be the pefect phrase to describe my sort of like stirred up feelings. Self conflicts, internal stress, and the list goes. Will I Ever be granted the scholarship?? Who knows? Still, I will have to enter matrix. Damm! two years in prison actually summoned me to another year of it! just like life sentence!!! hm... Days had been quite well, except that worry part. Still, I have to go on living

Made a call to my teacher just now. She told me only 1000 out of 3000 will be accepted. That's a big ratio! Sick! Will i ever get it? ai.....

Meanwhile, I could just pray.....

Interview's over

got one of my wish fullfill liao... thanx dad 4 phone... i am gratefull for that!
Was happy to be called for the interview and here's how it goes...
1. The interview was damm shocking.
2. Arrived the MARA building at 9.
3. Made a call to my schoolmates (those being called)
4. Suprised they r still lingering in town (their interview's at 10)
5. Checked d name list
6. Damm!! I am d second one!!!
7. Went in 4 interview
8. Some idiot doubt my bumiship n ask me 2 describe myself in kadazan!!!
9. Thank God my debate skills helped me
10. Finally, everything is over. Everything seemed quite all rite
11. pray....

"""""finally! It's ovr!!!!'......

p/s: sis, tke note, tat mara woman told me i m the third and last generation that can be classified s bumi.. If i happened to marry a non-bumi, my next generation can't xpect scholarships frm MARA... coz s wut they say,


utk saudara mara...
true? ahakzz...

mistake on my wish

made a mistake on my WANTED hp.... its not N6101 but Sony Ericsson z520i..... not much difference on d price.... close to RM100 gap... will i eva get it? hope so ! neways... its very lest chance that i will get it...
actually, what i wanted more is d MARA scholarship!!!

hoping, craving, raving.... :(

Notes for The Day

whew... another day had passed... stew is coming back 2nite.. wats next? big feast? i dont think so... guess my thoughts r runnin wild, much wilder than d horses of Steppe... Not sure y i kept on saying d wrong words at d wrong tym... hm... could have done things much better, but y i just cant do it? is it bcoz of my moodless feelings? or hell out tired? what am i tired of actually?

hm... got some in4 bout d HGP... guess ost docs know what is it... n now only i kew that it was completed a long time ago... 13 Arpil 2003! dammm! when i ask my teacher he said it was not! wonder how outdate r we...
nExt, found out that H5N1 is no easy shit... it has a lot of types... whew.. learn quite some stuffs..


A new tech for the day
As for my interest, checked out Intel Pentium D... d latest... not bad, offering double thread proccesser... what am i talking about anyway? hm... not quite sure...

n i m damm bored!!!

Matrix or IB?

woke up quite eatly... manage 2 actually...
another day had passed... the coming admission of university is juz around the corner. Could i make it? bet it's a hard task for me. Despite my results which fullfill the minimum requirements, that does not even secure me anything. Tonnes of students out there are making their way, pushing and rushing wherever they can to enter medicine. Why is this field so attractive anyway? Hm... Even I can't answer that. only time will decide. Prayers play its part, results prove itself. Anyhow, there's simply no reason for me to stop praying. Hoping one day i can enter IB.

Matrix might just be might next stop. Whether for the next two months or the coming year ahead, i can't actually give the answer. Time and again, people would ask me where would i head next? Well, the least i can tell is just matrix in Penang.

hm... what shall I do for the next few days? arggggg..... feels so bored at home......

Sign of relief or Green eye?

FINALLY!!!

phew..... should i say i m sorrow or happy? my results? does it shows a sign of relief or just another green eye at those who excel more? i bet mit's more toward the eye part. another few days had passed since i went back to school. Had some ideas of where am i heading. anyhow, all these can only be determined by time... could i be just another kid to admit matrix? lets hope it wo't last long... or i m gonna be imprison! and i mean it 2 yrs of IMPRISON!!!!

dyas passed well... wondering where to get my extra vitamin M? frm PSD? or maybe Daddy? :P Should i care less or morE? More i guess....

SPM again!

4K of students scored straight As, 900+ A1s!

tats how d tabloid reads... really? erm.. by my calculations, if there is 4K of students scored straight As, devided by thirteen states, means Sabah would have at least 300+ students who obtain such exemprary results!!! really? n my school is d top school of Sabah!! So, i wonder can i be one of them?? nothing else but pray! pray! n pray!!!

is it possible for me to attempt such oustanding record again?? i wonder.... could i perform AGAIN? after my achievements in pmr.... only time can decide. phew. a few more days will decide the rest of my future path. m i suitable to enter medical field? or something else? whats more, that can even decide my moods for the rest of the days... I wonder could i get things over?

hm... gov school students r havin their holidays! thank god they r not there!!!i mean when we take our results.... or there will be much "care to insult" ideas rushing in...

wats next? pray la!!! hoping 4 d bez!

Scared...

I bet SPM is much scarier than this!

hate to make d contdwn 4 SPM... coz its so damm near!!! damm scared..... oi, sum1... pls help me!!!!...hm... had a fine day 2day.... sum1 came... to buy d hse...haf mil!!! whos gonna buy wit dat price?? i duno.

a few more days, hoping to meet eugene n kevin... wondering how would eugene look like after coming out frm PLKN... read d news bout a man who entered PLKN twice... nothin to do i guesss.... boasting tat inside is gud. He wnted more!! tats y he entered twice!! a bit wu liao.

hoping 4 d bez...

Musri's whereabouts

phew... another few days had passed.... I stopped working, since March... So pls stop asking me hows ckg musri n nthe..... coz i DUNNO!!!!! SPM is gettin near..so damm scared!!!

had a clash...

hai... wat shall i say?? honestly these days, i seemed very much moodeless.... a few pages of knowledge can send me to my dreamland almost instantly.... much more efective than sleeping pills... i will not question how many of them, coz its juz too strong!had a clash a while ago... no practical valentine clash but "clash" within my brain... it seemed that my gray and white matter can't work together. I can't make choices.... well not as serious as what is potrayed in the "shopaholic" series. so far, i still know what shirt to wear. buT IT JUZ TAKES TIME!!!

Why is this actually happening to me?? YYY??? i duno la... ai... maybe its due to the upcoming SPM results.... whew... should i sigh? i duno.. what is done means done... there's no turning back.... all i can do now is jus pray,pray and PRAY... wishing for a silver linning.. they say it's not immposible, well i agree... still. can i achieved it? hopefully.

Am i confident of my results? erm... no!!! who can?? even d top scorer can't confidently judge his or her results.... maybe u can expect but there is no way u can make sure. That's facts! so, pls stop telling me to be confident!

Where's my future path? medicine? hope so.... y i kept on having heads to choose other feild? well, this is what i mean by "clash"!! erm, wats d name of d disease where u can' make choises?? sis, can u tell me?? hah... now that reminds me of tat gr8 movie....SHOPAHOLIC!


WILL I WORK USING THIS?


OR MAYBE THIS?

whew.... i dun wanna blog more for this time or d clash might just turn into a tragic accident!!! haha.... till then......praying..

G4s splitted

Had a busy day.. first d fan on my G4s splited half, probably self destruction 4 d fan, next i was screwed off from siform5.blogspot.com... i juz wonder are those people anti-me or wat so ever. Asking me not to spam, make d blog untidy or watso-ever... nevermind, i won't keep in contact with that affilation... not something good to do during leisure time.


Imagine that fan in d middle went in half-moon shape...I wondered how it happened

Hm, what did i do these few days? well, took a break from my work, went to Maths class yesterday. d A-level maths was not that hard afterall... juz covered a few chapters only. It just taKES TIME!!! HAHA...hopefully i'll be able to finish d sylibus in time b4 i admmmit matric or IB... talking bout d IB can i get it? lets just hope for the best. Hm...do i really wanted the doctor's proffession? ya I DO!!!!

Whew! another week has almost past... it's time to sat goodbye to this week and say halo to next week... hm.. what am i talking about anyway? i duno... anyway.. hopefully i'll be able to fix my old comp tonite...

NS SERVICE?

NS 4 me?


everyday is almost d same...bored

phew... looks like i m quite alone now at hm... considering my sis has returned to her wonderland in "europe"....haha..hope she will do well in her coming years... guess wat? she wont be back any sooner than 1 and a half years. That's a long way to go for her. Anyhow, i m sure she can handle it well, despite all the hardships she'll have to face. Hearing from all d complains that she groused, i m sure UKR is not any better place than Malaysia..haha... maybe only those who really been there can certified that!

A quick look at d past: both me and my sis had a gr8 tym 2gete at west Malaysia... Lots of laughter... although at times, we had conflicts (which we managed to settle it)...had a a few arguements...no solution...but still, we stand together as one family..

well, hows my days ahead? hm... gonna be bored i guess...anyhow, i had been through it.... two full years!!! Still d same me... A lot of people ask me how i spend my holiday. Well can mine be a real holiday? although i do not need to attend school for almost six months, still, i did made myself useful- half workin and half studying... DAMMM TIRED!!!!


always wanted a nap!

Hm... i can see some or maybe a lot of my friends are entering the national service. Is it an ideal programme. a lot of comments was thrown onto this NS thing. Whether it is a good or bad thing to b, it's not my right to say..anyhow, i din get it this yr, coz i was underage!!!! haha.. duno about next yr... will i??? b shaved??? someday, i ill b reading comics while some ppl will b marching as early as 5am!!! haha... let time decide..


could i just be d next participant?

neways... dinner is rollling over... gtg!

wat a dull day...

wat a dull day...


24 hrs wit tis machine...SO DAMM BORED!!!

As dull as the curry dull in the mamak stall. A normal day for me again.. tired, sleepy, and barely wanted REST!!! from morning untill now, everything went normal. Nothing special... not too good and not too bad either. Notwitstanding the endless flow of customers into the cyber cafe, i was able to handle things quite well...

Kin, if u eva happened to read my blog again, pls leave ur msg ..ok?

hma..... wat else? well, guess it's good news for me coz i m gonna be paid today....I am RICH!!!!!!! really?? haha... just joking.

Actually, I don't really have much to blog about, So, let's just end things here...Till then! Chow!

Another Tired day(-_-)

Another tired day......
Phew..... at least I had sum time 4 myself to blog.... hows today? well, not bad. Had a chance to come 2 work early. Still, 10 hrs of working isn't anything easy. Especially when you had a "chance" to handle those pilaks* damm! I wonder do they know how to stop after their credit was over? Anyhow, i was able to handle tat...Quite well i guess... Enough of those.

What's more, had a chance to meet up with my old juniors and some teachers as I revosot MRSM again today. Met up with mdm amy, had a chat or so called discussion with her... Besides, a trip into the dorm really makes me feel so homelike, considering my 2 long years of studies there. Next, ccidentally being seen by the damm fat ass named KHALIL....No good guy, everyone says he's involve in corruption. Anyhow, it's just a hearsay. He had fingers on me... as if giving me a warning but i just can't understand... Ai... 4get bout it la.

Erm.. wat else? guess tat's all for today... another tired afternoon again.....

HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!!!

Phew... finally i had a chance to blog! Well, as whatever i mentioned in my previous posting, i mean bout d packiing stuff, it was indeed true!! damm true! first, we were told to unpack one whole box of seafood... next, we'll have to handcarry two packets of meatb alls...thankgod it was only two...despite we already had one box of prawns(both cooked and uncooked) to be brought up to d plane..

On the plane, nothing was nice. Yes, it's my maiden flight on air asia, always expecting good things on the first time. Anyhow, things turned out the other way round. The plane was fine...new, and spacious. The drawbacks anyhow, outnumbered the advantages. clearly, it is a low-fare airline.. no frills indeed. There was no food! for a long two-hour journey. well, I was prepared for it... I was told about it and i certainly read the terms and conditions while booking for the ticket. But what I am trying to point out here is not about the food. Instead, the seat! I was not declineable! Imagine you have to sit for 90 degrees for more than two hours. It's not a joke man! Things certainly went worst when i started to take a short nap... no less, at least 10 minutes each time.. What do i mean by each time is that i just can't sleep well! of course wat! always fishing!

hm... enough of Air asia... holidays went welll, had lots of ang pao...


a sign of tradition or a income?

although all that went as waste in the end- God knows.... hm...stayed at Vistana Hotel...11days...
Even took a trip to Melaka...Stood a chance to meet up with kin, nini and dielah...

hm...back here in kk, started work again..9hrs daily..damm tired...


does it really woth the while to end up like this? DAMM TIRED!

guess i had enough of typing....but before i stop, i wanna say, HOME SWEET HOME!!! and i mean it!!!

wat bout SPM??????????? nvm...we'll talk about it next time...