Holidays....Break's over!!!

For the very first time, I spend my fortune on books! And I've even forked out time to read despite my malay novels (which I supposed to finish) were only down by one chapter. Got an interview kit for half a century tag, even mum don't know about it; not forgetting newsweek. mum was asking why spend on these? ha! I don't have a logical explanation behind it., just felt like reading anyway... The newsweek did caught my interest. "Does inflation really happen?" read up for your answers! cheers!

Finally, I got my ee done! ;) well, not exactly done, cuz d pics are not up yet. But anyhow, the writing up part is over. Coming to think of it, ee really helped me a lot, not just about ringworm itself, but it also aided my stats homework (the statistical analysis, t-tests and what not) Neways, it's done! :D Stats homework almost done (did those I can). Got my econs IA completed yesterday morning, all in a rush, just pray that the teacher won't reject it, one more commentary down to go... IELTS 100% done! Yahoooooo!!!! the reading part did crack my head over. phew... :D TOK skeleton is not seen yet, another one down to go... aih....really no idea how to get over it... pray pray and pray

Had less arguments with mum this time. Well, we did have minor misunderstanding about the Chinaman's pu er tea. It's not that I deny the quality of the wu fu li cha, just that i can't stop doubting the grades and quality of the Chinaman's good. Perhaps the readings on the internet really changed my perceptions? Did China government really subsidized the small entrepreneurs? I wonder....

For the two weeks, i spent most of my time with my ee and what not.s. Did went out with friends for movie, those guys are too enthusiastic in cartoon till i ended up watching Brave Story. phew.. What a day.. Well, least the theme song is nice. Managed to download it through Sogou.com..... Downloads! Muahhhhaaa... Got my CS3 at 67% when I left home. Downloaded MErcy Me's album overnight. Credits to Edmund....

Back at school, sent my 1st draft, EIA and all that. Managed to get things back on track. But for chemistry, it's still haywire. Will I get over it? Hm... Well, depends... I 'm still sleepy in classes. A norm that never revolve despite I 'm here for more than one and a half years. In fact, I developed it here. Haha.... Got my UCAS and UKCAt fees application claimed (money is still not in m bank!) IELTS sent in, though it's in a rush. HECTIC!!!!

Longing for weekend now. Even blogging turns out to be rather hard due to inadequate time. Sooner or later, I'll have to take a blogging break like Nad... haha...

Interviews hit the line?

"a guy who failed two interviews because he was too nervous. He went to his GP who gave him some betablockers and he failed third time round because he was too chilled!"

quoted from NewMediaMedicine

Interesting huh?
Interviews might be rolling down these days, that's if you get it. And the next question you would probably have in your head is how do I face it? How do I prepare? Right before your very eyes, your teacher or placement officer probably had given you a list of question that you might encounter by chance. Still, what are the chances for you to walk in there, stay calm (not too calm as quoted) and give a favorable reply for every question that they address? Staying calm is the key, but not to all university doors. Too chilled don't work but how to make sure that we are at the moderate level, just the level that the interviewers are looking for? Really pray that I won't encounter such problems ahead.

"Why medicine?"
An interesting yet disastrous question. Honestly, till this very moment, I'm still asking myself. Well, if easy life and easy money comes in mind, doctor's out. Some say, if you're not in denial of that fact and you believe a doctor's life will improve some day, perhaps you're the one they are looking for. Despite my personal statement is no where within my reach (UCAS has it), I'm still wondering the right answer to this question. To serve the nation? Or to serve the world where empathy is lacking? This career is people-oriented, some say. But while I tried to figure out the example of "people-oriented" cases, my searches were all in vain (well, this is Malaysia).

Will I get an interview? aha! That's should be the perfect question I should ask now! Well, did hear from my friends that some of them are offered interviews by Cambridge. Congrats to them. Mentioning about Cambridge, why hadn't I take the attempt? Well, it's not that I consider Cambridge has no life, but to be honest, I spent 700bucks for a non-living thing to tell me that I'm nothing more than a normal student out there. My grades never portray any sign that I am a potential applicant (genuine applicant). So why risk one of my four hopes? Back to the issue, till now I haven't receive any interview offers yet. Will I? hm... Reading all the forums in NMM really shatter my dreams into debris. Really hope I had done better in UKCAT. Friends do assure me that it's just a part of the requirements, there are still hopes on other criteria. Grades, I'm out (not completely though). But the competition is stiff. Stuart Little once quoted, there's always a silver lining on the other side of the story. That's what I can pray and hope for now, positive sign from different point of views...

After long "blog-break"...

Home sweet home! Horaaay! Holidays! Weird, I didn't have the ear-block problem this time. Probably I talked too much with that weirdo. For the third time of the year, I loaded my luggage with thick books. Will I ever open them? I don't know. Time will tell... The 2 weeks I have will probably be burned half before I even glance at them...
Meanwhile, ee, econs ia, tok essay, tok presentation is taking the queue. I didn't actually approach any of them yet. Instead, biology and stats took the front row. I don't know what's next, but I am pretty sure blogging is not one of them. The long list of homework never got shorter... How I hope, semester 3 exam is abolished.WHY??? Why must they re implement it AGAIN?? arg.....
UCAS settled, which actually means PS and UKCAT is an END!!! Thank God... The same day which I also submitted my 3rd draft for world lit. Hope everything will turn out fine... now praying for UCAS... Hope my application will be preferred by the "Ivory towers" out there.
Journey down the time tunnel... lots of activities took place... all in a fraction of time... seemed that semester 3 is REALLY FAST-PACED. Well, hope I can breeze through it (considering my long awaited homeworks).

THINGS I HAVE DONE:

• Buka Puasa session at Alamanda... Came back empty handed and my wallet also EMPTY! Where my $ landed? I wasn't robbed...chill... duh.... all in my tummy.... Manhattan, Pizza hut, Baskin Robbins, Amos Famous, Secret Recipe. All in 2 hours and I was RM100 poorer...

Who cares what they say? as long as my tummy's happy...

• Mid-Autumn fest... The juniors are great. Thumbs up to the juniors, they really done a great job. This time, we were join by more of our Malay friends... Guess they too enjoy the fun, while some of them actually indulge in the moon cakes grown with fungus... haha... Mr. Lim joined us too!! The camera men did a great job!

Toast! a tradition to be inherited?

A good sight despite it's blur isn't it?
Clubbing with lanterns?
...while we light up the pavilion

• UKCAT - Man! I spent 700 bucks for a computer to tell me I am dumb! duh....

Don't ever think I will post my result here, do you??

• IELTS classes - phew... Initial thoughts were pleasing, but shattered by the reading sessions. Found an enourmous hole for me to improve.... Edinburgh wants 7.5, Bristol wants 7.0...praying and working hard.....

3/4 elements I'll have to struggle in November
attaches with it is a 600 bucks bill...

• Conducted ee experiment a week after first draft due date... God knows what results I have... Nevertheless, I proceed with the writting part... While i wish this burden will be lifted by the first draft which I hope to produce in 2 weeks time...

I'm still struggling with the 4000 words... taking my sweet time...

• TOK presentation draft - Food labels reliable? never bother to submit the draft...still trying to figure out the knowledge issue and counterclaims... DIE!
• Went to Salak Tinggi Bazaar, thought I can satisfy my tummy there. High hopes were shattered by the semi-edible food there. To "dis-euphemise" it: Cheh! Nama jak bazaar..buruk pun tu makanan sana! Bida lagi tu penjual da! nda pandai senyum bha! B*bi!

...no intention to proceed.. only trying to figure out how am I going to utilize my holidays wisely... while I pray the best for my UCAS...

Remy vs Little

My show?

They SHARE:

1. Both are RATS (except the fact that one is called a mouse...who cares?)
2. Animals living WITHIN human
3. Amazingly, they can TALK (though human can't really make out what their squeaky sound means)
4. They are naturally GIFTED!
5. They live in happiness and very much liked by their owner

VS

What they don't share:

1. Physical appearance (obviously!!! One of them is blue! wonder did it consume too much Benedict's solution)
2. One trapped in love, the other one got its owner trapped in love (Can a bird and a mouse interbreed? an offspring of mouse that can fly?)
3. One can cook, one can drive (not a very appropriate comparison?)
4. One is detached from its colony, the other one tries to...
5. One wears clothes, the other one is NAKED! (measure of civilization?)

...

Now they RELATE ME to both of them

WHERE DO WE LOOK ALIKE?

10 REASONS FOR my case:

1. I am a human (how could a mouse/rat be similar in anyway?)
2. I live in reality
3. I EAT, not (ehem... u know WAT)
4. I do ENJOY French food, but I CAN'T PREPARE them!
5. Size? Appearance? (optical illusion? BUTAKAH??!!!)
6. Family love dominate me (although partially), the word valentine is still squeezing through my mind
7. I WATCH THEIR SHOW, they DON'T WATCH MINE (I do have a show?)
8. They always have a perfect ending (mine is a roller-coaster)
9. I speak multiple languages, they only speak theirs (is that a language?)
10. I EXIST!!! They DON'T!!!

Now, try relate la!!!

Holiday reflection

The COST of FUN

AIDS
YES! I am AIDS POSITIVE!
AIDS as in acute income deficiency syndrome
5 VIRUS that causes AIDS recently:

1. PASSPORT (FUNDED - a lot man!)
2. Birthday Party (x 2)
3. Block party (though I didn't even sniff the food)
4. The good old days a.k.a reunion gathering
5. Transport in KL (the price tag increment is proportional to the speed

The viruses sometimes worth it if you see these...

KMPP folks!! really miss those bits of life...
the couple that NEVER admit to me *arggggg

Jason, Nad, Should i be happy or sad?

Two wonderful senior that i had throughout my two semester here in this world of its own-kmb. Knowing both of them is a great pleasure for me. Jason brought me closer to God, Nad revealed to me the ability and strength of one's own opinion. Seeing them journey through the departure gate hurts. Thinking back, time really flies. A year ago, i was still will at full enthusiasm to know what IB is all about. Jason, with his handsome yet friendly smile welcome each and everyone of us. he talked to out parents, convinced us, and assured us that kmb is not a jail afterall. He was the link between us and the admin. He is the bridge that brought us across the deep river of faith... Father Michael will ask of him, the GFK choir will sing of his memory... Nad, the one I passed through frequently with a sweet smile. The first time i talked to her is in library, wher i first know her name. And she was the one that lend a hand to me when i arrived 7 am in KL... I am so thankful to her...Her absence in skull is such a great thud to me...Again, EMPTINESS!!!Now, knowing that i am half way through my destination, the minutes as i walked through the memory lanes, i can vividly recall their laughters and voices. The mundane faces that i hav seen and considered seemed to be more important than ever. They have patched my heart walls. Now that their leaving, the hole enlarge and we got further away from each other.

A "goodbye" and "all the best" is all. Handshakes and hug add-on. It's not sufficient at all! My eyes is sure to flood from time to time. Their caption adore my wallpaper. Each time I log on, I see them... Not physically but the emptiness is there... They crossed my heart. It may not be deep but it's a once in a life time experience. They walked with me, one way or another, how could I accept it?

When will we meet again? December? Isn't it a little bit too late for us? We would be at our respective destination by that time.. Anyway, i do hope one of them would be here during their uni talk in kmb. They are leaving, when will the 10 months end?

Nad and Jason, i pray that u both will have a good life there... All the best. Have a blessed life there! Really miss u 2...

Aging?

Does age matter?
Does it determine our circle of friends?
Or is it mere measurement of the word 'old'?
Brothers or sisters?
Does age realy decide what you are being addressed?
Age gain respect?
Out there,who is older than who?
Who realy cares?

Juniors!!!!

Just threw myself out of today's CF session... A break for me... Juniors came in, new faces, new experience. I wouldn't really comment on them for the sake that they are actually my age. At the very least my peers finally EXIST in this palm oil estate. Pretty faces? You judge it in the next few pictures. Handsome ones? Not in the right shoes to judge. The juniors were kind of lucky I would say. They got their 1st nons party on their second week here. Thanx to Aaron and the gang... had a good time. One thing I just can't understand why are they so enthusiastic in taking pictures..hm...



They say we are weirdos(the seniors) Now, we say the juniors are total weirdos too... not to say nerds but they are extremely hardworking. 1st day of school sees them filling up each and every seat in the library and emptying the racks. Cool... during my days, I hadn't even borrowed one... Well, in fact I did, but JUST Raymond Chang. Am I too lazy?



My EE just got rejected. What's worst, my second Econs IA had the same fate. Guess I'ill be extremely busy this weekend. I have een trying to finish up the IA for the past two weekend but I never got the initiative to start... pray for the best



These days, I have been ordering ood from the Pak Cik Guard. He's not the cook of course! He's just the one doing the delivery service. Had puyuh yesterday! hm.. not as nice as I expect but what can I say?



Church visits as usual. Well, this time we got our transport right at out doorstep. Well, not literally, but at the very least, we don't need to walk the long way through the palm oil trees. Went to Cresk's church last week. Was supried Cresk's name still being mentioned. He's the legacy there. I can still vividly remeber what pastor said, "People like Creski and Malcom are..." Creski and malcom? He must have forgot that this two are actually one! Family day at Morib beach this weekend. Should I go? Tim's coming over. Kinda confused now.. Tim or church?hm....


The smiles...
The new faces...
The Petronas Twin towers. New KMB record... Navin and Suresh
Pretty?
Ha... their first party....

What's left out

June 8th Friday - The KMBian's from Perlis, Kedah and Penang touch down at the land below the wind. The "auspicious" event sees the three north girls cramped into a four wheel drive and end up strolling around the tropical city in Malaysia a.k.a. Kota Kinabalu. As the sun sets over the moonlight, their tummies were loaded with 1kg of prawns, 2 fishes that probably feeds 10 people on normal dinning scale, 3 crabs which sees their ilitracy in handling the claws and mouth watering dishes which totaly force them to swallow the word "hungry". The journey was continued up to the Observation Tower and later finding themselves in the night life of the city.

Morning sun greets them with the bus ride to Kuala Penyu, which they eventually found themselves in Menumbok, having to spend another RM6 for a return ticket as a result of overslept. The island trip was awesome! Let the picture in my album tell the story....

@mosphere revolving restaurant

Meryl's introduction into the green

Snake Island

Natural body therapy? or pure mutated Kerbau?!!

The last meals which gathers Ab, Peta, Cresk, LimZhi, Melissa, Yilin, Meryl, Mitchel, Shiang Jin and me

The chalets which we eventually enjoy for free

They had their chance to witness the local harvest festival where they finally open their eyes to see Kaamatan and the greenery of Meryl's Kg. Sarapung. The journey ended with dinner involving 3 batches of KMBians and taxi ride as early as 4am to LCCT.

Holidays passed by in lightning speed. A flicker of eye and I am back in what the facade says: IB world school. The holiday had trained me to handle the word "emptyness" better. Still, at times, as I walk back towards my history, I can still vividly recall the shadows and voices. They are gone now, never return? Probably in a year's time, the laughters will roar again, somewhere far from here. And that is if I make it. Will I?

Semester exam's ended. The script that most students fear - result script will soon reach our hands. The papers that I received showed improvement, Thank God. But I doubt if I am compatible with the others - my "counterparts". I hope I am placed in my desired university, but that's just hope. All the assignments and "seemed endless" syllabus will certainly put me into idle internet status for the next few months.

Better time management could help, but my endless non-academic activities kept me awake round the clock, especially weekends. Should I go for the next TM meeting? Or should I just mingle around with the juniors?

Juniors! I look foward for them in a positive way.... That would probably be my upcoming post!

Finally. after 8 yrs

From the kitchen exit...the next destination for our washing machine and mom's legendary "oven yang nyawa-nyawa ikan"

From the dinning hall... btw, the rolls of carpet are not ours, should charge the developer for putting them there....

The plot for our granite table.

D'entry

There it is... from outside...

mom's office - KITCHEN!

Our guest room and the honourable guest is none other than me!!! kekekeke... :-P

Our very own hallway, highlighting the entry to store room and porcelain museum

listed in blueprint as study room and dad's office, while being the mini porcelain museum

p/s: check out the sea view we have!

As you look down from our balcony....

Well, there's still a long way to go before we move in. Probably months. I just hope things don't turn out to be like our old house - Porcelain museum, though we do have one, a mini one. Hopefully, by August, I can say bye to Bunga Raja....

Exam's OK... Room refurbished...

Whew... Finally the exam is "over"...Well not too soon, tommorrow is my english paper. Something which i can take a short break, then followed by statistics. Hopefully I can breeze through it. Hm.. Hows previous exams? I would just say "OK". Nothing much that I can do, but just to pray hard that my answers favor the scheme, or should I say, the other way round. Maths was kind of rush. I could hardly finish it, in fact, I didn't! Considering most universities "hunts" for maths, I seriously got to brush up this subject. Malay was kind of miracle just now. My preperation was less than two hours. Thank God the questions favors my revision topics. Least it is over, though now I can hardly write due to the 6 pages of non-stop grandmother's story. Phew....

They keep on saying sorry. But had I really blamed them? I don't think so. Well, let bygones be bygones. I hardly want to recall anything about it, as long as I am out of hot soup. Somehow, I learned something. In short, I never blame any of you! I just got to know you more.

Just loaded another two boxes of Joc's books in my room (last, thank God). Now, as seen in the picture, my room is still presentable. Although I even keep business books for sale, I just hope it will be out of my room as soon as possible. On my own account, lots of people might think I am crazy to have collected so many books when I hardly read any of them. Or some perceptions prefer to consider me as a greedy one. Well, i am just doing it out of my willingness, to help her to sell the books. To spend some time exchange a worthy bond is a price I can afford.

Did cleaning just now. Those pics were before cleaning ok? I keep my stuffs tidy all the time. Can't wait to leave the school... hm... hopefully the left over two paper will not be hard. I just hope I can write a good story tommorrow, and get the paper 1 right. Will I?

Who is more worthy?

Sem 2 exam just begun. The perpetual stress started.Econs down, still 5 more to go...waiting and craving for 25th. For the 1st time in my entire life, I am home sick!!!! Probably because of the outgoing seniors. Sadly, the laughters and memoirs that they left kept lingering in my mind. Each time I passed by the concourse, the wakaf, DS, their shadows seemed motiling around those places. Parties, meets, dates and even breaking law moments remained fresh, as if like they just left seconds ago. Cries and weepings takes place, hand shakes exchanged, but could this be a solution to their farewell? I tried, the emptyness was never filled on my way to LRC. I had no mood at all for supper. No laughters only silent cries. Hopefully, I can adapt to the emptyness as soon as possible.

Is humanity a part of IB? Has IB removed its so called ethics? Morality? I was hanging out at one of the girls block (outside) bidding my last farewell to my closest seniors. One of them asked for my help to sell some books. It was somehow raining, and logicly, I would have no way to shift the 2 boxes to my block within the shortest time as it was downpouring. There was this bunch of girls lingering there as well. Trust or friendship? I wondered. None of them give a hand! Where is the sense of "yi qi"? Not even bothered to help your senior? Excuses like tiredness seemed lame. One of them reluctantly offered her room but requires me to shift the books to her room myself. Is she in her right mind? How can I ever do that? I had the chance to screen through the books, most are originals, priced at leat double figure. Seeing that the block was close to total empty, I followed cresk in, carrying one of the boxes to the adjacent block. Guess luck was not on my side, I got screwed by the warden. Fearing my future, I tried explain. Out of humanity, I see that is a help I should give. And she replied by a total different topic - Community. I am not sure if her tudung covered her eardrums, but god knows that's a total different story. So, leaving me and cresk defending ourselves. Non of the girls fork out even word! Non... all they could afford is a pair of eyes watchin you die by your own!!!! I am sure, if all of them stayed by my side, I should be out of hot soup, the warden would be speechless! Since both of us are critical situation, all we could do is just crack out heads for more points. God never withdraw His love from His disciples. True, luckily, Jocelyn came back to collect something that she forgot. Thank God, she stood up to explain. I hope the letter on Monday helps. Meanwhile, this scene sent me thinking, what are friends for? To see you die by your own?

Somene told me I was too close to the senior rather than my batch. Well, why not? I take them as people who are more worthy! At their moments of departure, they are still willing to stand up or me! Clearly, having them as sisters and brothers are more preferable. I don't even mind if I were to turn my room into temporary store for them!

Friends who are willing to share love, waiting for you at your most critical moment? How many? I doubt....

Our Journey...

May it last forever....

With love,
Stuart