Relief...

Thank god...It was mere challenge, which i endure it. A good experience for me at least. Everything is back to norm now, except the scratch which time can heal. Is it words of love? or is it human language. Whatever it is, I know, nothing matters much now because "let bygones be bygones". That's what history are for right? Look on the bright side, it allows us to improve, and who knows? to make a great stride ahead. Standing on the verge of breaking up yesterday truely taught me how words can really turn things out, as what the proverb says, pen is mightier than the sword. True. Well, everything restored. So why shall I worry over it? nah...

Dinner's served. Mom made chicken pie today. not the 1st time. But it was more than good. hm.. nutritious. Too bad, my tummy do not support that high capasity. Guess I'll have it reheated as lunch tomorrow. Sis, mom was "inspired by your effort of making pie in UKR"! ahaks...

This should be able to last for at least two to three days...

delicious? simply...

how words in YM can hurt...

crush... demolished... debris... That's what most likely that is left. after May 07, the days would have been something empty. By that time, exams' just around the corner. Fear draws its potrait. My feelings would be a cocktail. It would be stale. filled with unwanted thoughts and uneasy feelings. It would not be edible, it's mere survival condition. It's hard for m to accept it. But facts are meant to be followed. No one can turn back time. I just hope that second can skip out of my life and make my life easier... all the time, praying for the best...

Prayers Work

Let bygones be bygones. How could I ever accept that? I guess some how I just have to. Exam's just passed. If I take a jaunt back, I would not deny that the outcome is not promising. Have I actually done my best? Or did i just breeze through it? I wonder. Did my laptot distracted me? Or did my new life turned me down? I would say none of them. Commitments are simply endless. Just two weeks ago I came to realised that my sports hours do not meet the requirements. Given the chance to add on, I didn't take it. Simply because the payment is not within my ability. 50 bucks for 20 hours? I really wonder if she's in need for money. Luckily I managed to save that 25 bucks. Talking bout my future, I simply had no idea on where am i heading next. If my sem1 result repeat, Uk might just be another dream. Still, I promised and I must make it there. For all this years, maths never adorn my problem list. These days, I am rushing to keep up with it. Thanks to jocelyn for he prayer lists. And all my CG & CF friends who prayed for all of us juniors. Creski, thanks for the last minute prayer before my BM paper. For the first time, the whole paper went well after almost a week of struggling. Prayers do work. Though I can expect the worst for my maths, still after paper 2, I came out of the exam hall calm. Not sure why, but there seemed no stress at all... Praise the Lord.

Days at KMB seemed to be better. Look from the bright side, i left 3 more sem to go. I just hope I can made it through the whole IB. Hopefully, I can perform in sem 2. Strive for excellence? Do I have a choice? It's simply a must. All I can do is just storm the front. There's no turning back. So whatever I have for sem 1 has to be faced. There's no use of crying over spilt milk. Look ahead and do the best. Hopefully I can do the best! Mus, I cannot promise you to be among the top, but I promise that I will do my best.

Entering the time tunnel, sad days are replaced by happy days. She cheered me up a lot. A new page of life turned. I am glad turned it. Not just that, but I found KMB a better place to live in. Despite the uneasy life and "nice" foods, I found out the moon was one of the nicest I ever seen. Crazy? But I did looked towards the sky, hoping for a silver lining. The bright silver moon ray seemed to hint me good outcomes. Hope so...

Upon arrival in KK, I seemed to miss a lot of stuffs back in KMB. Her, my friends, my life, and my everlasting experience. Hope I can make good use of this holiday. Meeting with cheryl on Monday for maths. The homework just seemd endless. Well afterall, that's IB - EE, Bio Lab, Econs IA, Maths...


Ying and Yang? Nah... Look on the positive side, its always there.


I wonder if it simbolises anythin. I have seen it a few times in the college. Conincides?


The cat that joined us for jogathon.


It was somehow a beginning that leaded to my new life. Who's the prettiest neways?


Believe in church. The last night in Banting in sem1 was simply a memorable one. 1 more sem with joc... Hope she can get over her dilema...believe in Him.

WILL or MUST?

Chem just passed. the last 15 minutes really challenged me both mentally and physically. Thank God I finished till the final letter. I wouldn't cosider my knowledge is just at the tip of ice but the question startled me at half-time. No red-cards were issued but i know my abilities. I would be grateful if it turns out 7. Anything less than 6 seemed quite impossible. It's a HL, so 6 still threaten my applications later. Afterall, its over. The only thing that i can do now is to pray. English and maths is coming up. Will I do well? Even English is launching its spy plane as a sign of threat. I wouldn't deny that my english is merely what I should have. Its a challenge, yet to be tested anytime, anywhere. Maths could just be another nuclear bomb against me. I wouldn't see it as something that i can overlook, coz i just cant. Killer subject? I guess so... Well, thinking back, my problems were gradually eliminated from my short-list. It was some how solved as i did make it into a new life. What's up for next? I would say, just pray for the best. There are ups and downs. Looks like this weekend is not gonna be anything better than the last. I might be goin back in less than 7 days but the extreme burden that i am carrying now do not permit me to think of it at all. It seemed that I won't be goin back anytime sooner but the fact is, I AM! Walk one step, see one step. That's what the proverb says. and that's all i can do. Though the time left is less than a year, i will treasure every moment of it, every second we spend together. Someday we might part, but where the heart is there, what we have inculcated will last forever. Always... The part within me will always be there. I have made my choice and i am firm about it. Nothing can change my perception, my life and my decision. Age might be a problem, but that won't stop me. Back to IB, the 42 is there. Regardless of my ability limitations, i will achive my dreams. It's the confidence that will decide at times. UK is not impossible, and I must make it there. I don't care there are how many options available. What I have is just one, make my parents proud and offer them a sense of relief. I have done enough wrong deeds and i am sure enough even this won't repent. But that's the best I can do and I will do it! Besides all this, i won't forget that special one. I will always get closer. Though IUMC is not within my reach, but I myself will move towards it. that's a promise I give. I MUST make it into the fairland!


even he can do it,why can't I?