The life that awaits me

"Exams....

Just to clear up the rumours, we aim to release the exam results by 3pm May 
20 via Blackboard"

Got this email from Kat. Was it really a relief? Or is it just another seemed-long wait to know the truth. The truth about my efforts during the last two terms, the truth about my level of competence in MCBoM and HBoM. Year one's almost drawing its finale, and I'm still in the midst of no where. Cardiovascular lessons are already half way through, and all I did was anticipating the sphygmomanometer that I bought a couple of days ago to arrive, to practise my clinical skills, when I am not required to do so. And to remind me that I'm still lost, I just found out what's the difference between Stroke volume and Cardiac output a couple of days ago, when I should have known it weeks ago.

I need prayers!!!! and Lucks now!!!!

Spent my weekend, no, burnt my weekend watching Ampang Medikal. I would say it's the Malaysian version of Greys but the point is, it portrays what would most likely to happen during our HO or as students in UK name it, F1. Well, I'm not sure how far the truth goes in the series but as far as I'm concerned, the show is portraying things my siblings shared with me through out the years. 36 hours non-stop working, then you get a 5pm to 7am break, then another 36 hours. You probably have to sustain that in a few weeks interval and it will last for 2 long HO years. Gosh, what a life awaits me. I really hope to stay forever as a student now.

And as an extra ingredient, a HO will have to sustain the pressure from the ones up above him or her. I could just imagine myself standing beside the bed don't know what to do when a patient suddenly drop dead right before my own eyes. And just when I was about to doubt more, the nurse's plot came along. Yes, nurses are perhaps our saviors in the hospitals. At most times, they have been in that field for ages, but because of the word nurse, they are no where near this 5 years course's reward. Seriously, don't they deserve to be called Medical Officers as well? Well, I'm not saying ordinary nurses but for those who have serve the field for ages, of one that would think like a doctor does, one that posses equivalent level of knowledge. Back to the point, the nurses are likely to tell us what to do especially when we have just started our HO tenure.

Conclusion? Learn your lessons well and make sure you have your skills at fingertips! Ok, I'm telling myself.

p/s: the post earlier entitled "Random" was a subplot of the show that make me ponder more about relationship in the hospital.

Did I marry the right person?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How
do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It
depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing
on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with
your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their
touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).


Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely
natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love...
Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the
imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there;
doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU


Falling in love is easy It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But
after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love
fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship Slowly but surely,
phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always
welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead
of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think
about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the
initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry
subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the
right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once
had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages breakdown People blame their spouse for their
unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the
most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive
TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies
within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a
few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S
LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER
just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love.. You have to "make"
it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of
love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy And most importantly,
it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage
work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things
you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there
are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger,
certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results
are predictable... you can "make"love

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always:

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you
let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."

" Together , We make It Happen", "Be Effective, Get Results", "Do What Is
Right" and " Work Together"

...adapted from forwarded email

perhaps I should really learn from this. Thanx for the sharing.

Random

A specialist dating an MO's wife. No, the wife dated the surgeon...

How Come Got One Place Call Jimmy Choo?

Note the clip starting 1.00 onwards. Now this is what I call the precipitating factor of the conflicts between us. Us as in us, yes, it's us, and if you still don't get it, it's us!

Download movies = stealing?

- Free videos are just a click away

yayayaya.. urgh.. whatever...

So what happened during the weekend? and Bank Holiday?

Well, watch a couple of movies and that includes:

Annapolis (06) which eventually inspire me to check for medical careers in TLDM. And what I found was quite promising but still military camp? Maybe some other time.

Wolverin (09)

The interesting bit of this movie that I watch is that it is a workprint version It's the completed movie but some of the graphic outlines have not been removed yet, such as the ropes behind the stunt men and the digital graphic videos that the producer used as follows.


Rather interesting as this is the first time I'm watching workprints and it's an eye-opener to what the director and producers did in the movie to capture its audience.

Paul Blart, Mall Cop (09)

Gosh, why ain't I in love? sweet...




Had a few softwares add on to my Studio as follows:


Adobe Photoshop CS4 Extended, bundled with softwares such as Adobe Bridge CS4 and Adobe Drive CS4. Note the new interface, tab functions and 3d features. I have yet to explore this wonderful program.

Mixcraft. In which I initially wanted to buy a turntable for fun, but it's hell out of a cost. Thus, I resorted to the digital way, mixing music on screen. Of course, this doesn't come with turntable effect as it is in clubs. Seriously, I'm considering DJ as a hobby. Bit too far fetch?

And to boost the bass i have in my room, here you go, SRS Audio Sandbox. And the sound effect is really promising. Advice, best effect with 5.1 speakers. I literally drown myself in the disco mood at night with the beats, but don't do it in WC, cause the wall is so thin that you can hear your neighbour making out.


Got myself 2 Eurodance album, one by Dj Sammy and the other Basshunter. It's really a good deal if you're into this genre. So much so, it may be techno as well.


Recommendations,
Dj Sammy: Heaven, The Boys of Summer, El Condor Paso
Basshunter: I Miss You, Now You're Gone, All I Ever Wanted



Oh yeah, I rearrange my room, now it's in original position. I can have both screens on at the same time do multitask. It's really helpful. Movies while studying? or Homework with movies?

The new arrangement, with the new foldable (inset). seriously, the keyboard ain't typing friendly. Bought it just for hip of it.

The screens are well extended to both displays, allowing multitask. yay!

Went for the MCS Lunch Banquet but nothing much to talk about it. It didn't disappoint me or surprise me. So, yeah, it's just another lunch.

Meanwhile, I really got to get back to my books. Went to ASSL, hoping that I can study there but too bad, not a seat available. And guess what? I walk back home, landed in my room doing nothing beneficial till now!!! But somehow, I am thankful that My exams are sort of over during Easter or where am I gonna find the motivation to study with the over packed library?

Food fact: I sorta like made a new recipe which I call satay pasta, taste good to me.

Presentable? Thanx to Singapore government for the sauce.









So, all in all, was the weekend fruitful? Probably not academic wise.

Cambodia Relief Mission 2009

..we deserve better allowance? these kids deserve the basics... lend a hand @ http://crm09.blogspot.com

p/s: This is a forwarded message from the linked site

Exam's over

Yes finally!!! It's all over. The past 3 weeks was a hell. Literally spent like 8 to 12 in ASSL. What an amazing deal from me. And Geoff should have a sensible reason to throw me out if I were to return in July for resit. Gosh. Just don't dare to think about it... hoping for the best. 5 days of ultimate trauma, switching my soul from the biochemist to ethicist then to epidemiologist and finally yesterday morning Anatomist (doubt got such word) and histologist.

And now that it's over, I'm already in London waltzing the bits of my life without books. Yeah! Least I do know I have literally nothing to revise untill the next lesson. And yeah, the department is cruel, done with the trauma, the 9-5 preassure starts again. Classes 9-5 will last on for another 4 weeks, then a study week leave, and end with a Cardio and Respiratory MCQ on 11 June. Just MCQ? I dare not think about that.

And when this pop up in my inbox, I am totally pissed!

"Unfortunately due to a problem at the printers your handbooks won't be ready so please bring plenty of paper to make notes. "

Why can't they just get things done more efficiently? Haven't they got enough to the point that we didn't get to use the CAS for revision at all for our finals in Easter?!!!

Had a good time over at my close buddies' place in London. The dinner today was simple but hell interesting! And out of no where, we came up with this:

For the eternal rest?

The chicken that went a little bit too spicy

Gai Lan... Missed this so much....

Thankfully he didn't put the chilli into the Gai Lan

And it seemed that this is simply indispensable =P

Why am I in London, it's because of food! Yeah, me and my food! In a couple of hours time, my taste buds will be satisfied with the long lost hawker delicacies flown in specially from Singapore! Yay!

I am just too HAPPY to be in this stress-free stage! Yay!!!!!!

Potong Zaka

Two old friends - Apek and Ali were having a conversation recently ....

Apek: Lu potong zaka ada bagut ka?

Ali: Manyak bagus. Bila lu potong haa, lu punya barang manyak bersih loo...

Apek: ?!! err ... saya kawan ala cakap, potong zaka aaahh.... manyak ploblem..

Ali: Apa problem?

Apek: Manyak buang lui, lagi aahh ... dia punya performance tadak bagut... manyak cinang semputloh ...

Ali: Cehh... apek, lu apa cerita... saya suda lama potong. tada apa problem... bini saya manyak puas woo...

Apek: Lu mini puas sama itu potong zaka ka?

Ali: Ya laa. Bila lu potong aahh... lagi sedap main woo.. lu lagi lambat pancut..

Apek: ???!!! err... lu punya 1.3 atau 1.5??

Ali: ??!! woi apek cakap baik2 sikit ha ... saya punya 6 inci laa..

Apek: ??! Tiu nia ma... lu jangan main2 haa... mana ada potong zaka 6 inci..

Ali: Cilaka apek ni...nah tengok (opens his trousers)

Apek: Chee sin punya olang.....gua tanya baik2 ... lu tunjuk lu punya lanchiau..

Ali: Abis... lu tada percaya..saya tunjuk la..

Apek: Saya tadak tanya sama lu punya lanchiau... Saya tanya lu pasal itu nasional car... potong zaka.. bolo punya olang..

Ali: Aiya... apek... lain kali lu sebut betul2 la....kasi susa saja..

Bukan potong zaka la..... proton saga........

adapted & more from Funny and Quirky News and Jokes from Malaysia

LCD & Room rearrangement

The package came at a.m. as promised =)

Fixing the stand of LCD

Did a room rearrangement to fit the new family member (I guess less people can sleep in my room now..so, less guest =(), added the sitting-on-the-floor touch. Should get a carpet soon, but then and again, should I spend that much?It's just 5 years what...hm....

And here's a closer look at him. Indeed the picture and video quality did not disappoint me. 1080 details, AWESOME!!!!

p/s: I wish I could blog more but seriously, the exam prep is killing me!!!!!!
till then...

Man U vs Malaysia

Manchester United FC is playing against Malaysia on the 26th July. Not quite sure where yet, but I assume it should be in Bukit Jalil. Hopefully, I should be able to attend it, and thank God I got myself a Man U Ts (if you get what I mean =P). Though I was never a football fan, I will make an effort to hit the road for this history in making process... hehehe

VS

but wait, where can I get the ticket, anyone?

Azureus

http://azureus.sourceforge.net/

Tried out this new P2P client. Rather fast I would say, aside from the point that seed was abundant. The catchy part in this program is its source of HD clips that came by default in its Vuze HD Network. I must say the trailers came at more than 2MB/s.

Note the Vuze HD Network on the left and the common P2P transfer bar that dock on the screen (can be removed).

Had Fast and furious 4 from Mininova under 20 minutes with Azureus. Seed : Leechers was approximately 1:2, file size approximately 700mb. Indeed, if you're looking for a P2P software, you might wanna give Azureus a try.

Kami Anak Malaysia

Touching eh...

Happy Easters!

Thanx for the lovely greetings from home! Happy Easters everyone!!!

Hopefully, after blessings from mass, I will be able to be steadfast to what am I supposed to do. Yeah, hopefully. 8 days counting, hoping for the best now. Probably down by half of what I should boil, but yet another half is to be done in the next 3 days at most. 3 days!

...and again, HAPPY EASTER DAY!

WHY??!!!!

Still the same old habit when I'm in my room - Sleep, wake up and that's it.
Why must the library close?!!! =(
Just couldn't get my ass into the lectures!

Histology Cram

Woke up rather late today, worst, haven't been productive at all. And yeah, 9 days counting down! HBoM is still intact. Damn!!!

Have been starting boiling histo eversince I step outa bed. Squamous, Columnar, Cuboidal, Ciliated, Kreatinised, Pseudo, Transitional, Vili and bla bla bla...


And here's a print screen of my current view. NO MORE FB!!!

Microsoft Wireless Laser Mouse 8000

Yay! Got my MWM 8K this morning! What a breakfast. Well obviously I didn't eat that for protein or what have you in the nutrient chart, but the delivery speed is indeed promising. Lovely! For 5 years, I treasure your outmost loyalty, but time forgives no one, an undertaker take its way.

Through thunders (the times when you had electric shock due to improper shut downs) and storms (the times I spilt water on you), you have always been there, safe journey my friend.

And now, welcome to the family, Microsoft Wireless Mouse 8000,
Had my hands on the moment I open my mail box and yes it has been promising. The fact that it's rechargeble (note the dock) should keep my days off battery stores for at least a year or two (even if I have to, it would be a long term investment - NIMH). And the 5 keys it have is awesome. The following features is notable. The keys can be customized and I really find the following features handy.
With just a click on mouse, I can see all the windows I'm in. And if you're fond of the 3D-Aero feature, you can custumize in such a way that a click to let u scroll through the windows in 3D.
And it comes with a magnifiying feautre too. Well, we're not blind but when your lappie is a feet or two away, what can you see? It's simply lovely!

And I tried CS on the mouse, the response speed is nothing lesser than my previous USB mouse, it's awesome! Bottom line, I highly recomend it. If you're looking for a new wireless mouse, aim the Microsoft Wireless Mouse 8000 (of course they might be new series coming up but I'm sure it would be just as lovely). And mind I remind you, it's bluetooth 2.4Ghz! Oh ya, it's not optical but laser, so no more of the conventional eye hurting red light! The only light you see is the low bat light which will flash a few times before it drop dead, but a 15 minute charge should last you well for a day or two. More info @ MWM8K

5.1 Surround Sound System on Studio 1535

Hooray!!! A discovery on Studio 1535. It actually support 5.1 surround system (5.1 simply means to play sound of your computer from 2 rear speakers, 2 front speakers, a center and a sub woofer - which is what I have in my previous post). Generally, to enjoy this system, we will need 3 jacks, which is what is provided in most of today's computer. However, in most case, where our lappies won't come with a 5.1/7.2 sound card, the 3 jacks comprises of one mic, 2 headphones as shown in below pic.
But that won't be the problemn (at least for owners of 1535). Cuz the preinstalled IDT HD sound software (as shown below) allows you to convert all 3 jacks into audio output, just nice for one center, rear, and front speakers. And I must remind you, the sound effect made significant difference compare to what I used to do by just switiching on all 6 speakers at once.
Just select "5.1 Speakers" on left circle and change the jacks fucntion on the right circle and you're set to go! So, yay! With S2309W along, it's simply a mini theater in my room! Awesome! Good reason of why I love DELL, they are just robast giants with amazing functionality.

Draining my pocket

Spent a fortune on enhancing my Studio 1535 (center). From left, clockwise: DELL 23" FULL HD 1080p Wide Panel LCD, HDMI-DVI Gold Plated wire, Microsoft Rechargeable Bluetooth Mouse 8000, Sony 5.1 Multimedia Speakers (bought this for over 4 months ago). Perhaps a good easter treat? Maybe a bit too lavish but spending this amount of dough on so many reasonable quality items are timely offer I guess. Time to cut down on spending! Eat cucumber everyday =P

Changing Partners

Changing Partners
Patti Page

We were waltzin' together,
To a dreamy melody
When they called out, "change partners"
And you waltzed away from me
Now my arms feel so empty,
As I gaze around the floor
And I'll keep on changing partners
Till I hold you once more

Though we danced for one moment
And too soon, we had to part
In that wonderful moment,
Something happened to my heart
So I'll keep changing partners
Till your in my arms, and then
Oh my darlin', I will never
Change partners again

Though we danced for one moment,
And too soon, we had to part
In that wonderful moment,
Something happened to my heart
So I'll keep changing partners
Till your in my arms, and then
Oh my darlin', I will never
Change partners again

A year had passed... Good bye, farewell, save the last dance!