The post-exam syndrome

Exams ended two days ago. It was shitty. I am just hoping that I would pass. I refuse to sacrifice my summer to come back just for the resit, and most of all, I pledge not to study during summer!!! And of what I thought to be a relaxing and interesting weekend turned out otherwise. TIRED and MUNDANE!

Tired:

Packing. Got most of the things sorted out by this morning. Thank God my housemate has a car, or I'll have to work my biceps for those boxes all the way to Victoria. Well, good news is, I moved all my stuff to the new place at this point except clothes and kitchen ware (in which will no longer be a pain in the ass cause I have minimal clothes and utensils =).

The white walls now reminds me of moments during 9 months ago, when I first step in WC. The empty four walls.

And I have got my new house keys in hand already! That means I can slowly move my clothes and go in and out in these few days. Well, I probably would need only another trip or so to get things done.



Mundane:

Serious, I woke up, I look the mess in my room (before this morning), it really burns my spirit for the day. Knowing that I have lots to pack, I just couldn't bother to commence all of them but to bury myself into Need For Speed Underground. Exam's ended, it seemed that I no longer have any aim in life (at least for now). Slept at 5 woke at 1. Am I adapting to the +8.00 time zone already? I wonder.

Home sick! YES!!! After 9 months, I felt the pain. I was just wondering where all these begins, it just came... Perhaps the fact that more friends leaving each day precipitate the situation. Sigh... And as I watch "Addicted to Love", I really hope I get the chance to sniff the hometown air now, much contrast to what I hoped about 9 months ago when I was craving and cursing that I was the last to fly off.

The good bits did not fail to tag along despite all my "renderings". My housemate cooked for me!!! The day before she rush off to London and off she go departing back home in matter of days! Oh how I envy her! I was totally flattered when she knock on my door and said today's menu is nga bou gai fan, tom yam and omelet. Oh how sweet~ Thanks mate!!!! hahaha...

Will be travelling in a few days time. But seriously, I don't quite feel the excitement at this point. Not at all, I just thought of going back, ASAP. Let's just hope all these will change. And not to forget, crossing my fingers tightly for the upcoming results - HBoM and SYS 1A.

missing you precipitate the predispositions. Oh, how I wish to see you now! No, I did not give up on you...

moving on...

So it's game over. I shall start a new life from now on, I will be happy not thinking about the past, the moments we had. Yes, move on.

I will...

I will listen to it, over and over again, just so that I can be sick of it, and forget you, once and for all... Will I?

The Purple VAIO

What a nice color, I thought you might like it sis, it's purple! But the specs ma ma dei nia... So, er, nevermind... The price itself is already a hell. haha.. Just a thought of sharing.




No replies, nothing at all... =( 其实不是差一点，而是大错特错！

Cantik ooo

Anyone wanna give this to me as a birthday gift? Kekekekeke

Still hoping the moments would come... you're leaving, soon, very soon... =(

Picture Source: http://planet.bfwgaming.com/wp-content/plugins/wp-o-matic/cache/76e68_htc_touch_diamond_2.jpg

Promise...

承诺 = 压力？还是安全感？

So...

So everyone finished their exams... and I just finished my anat for the day, classes continue till next Thursday, then MS and CVS exam week after. What a life! I know there are some monkeys out there will thrill me with movie experiences very soon, considering I did the same before. Nevertheless, you know me well, I have ultimate capability to avoid your tempts!!! =P

So it's Dragon Boat Fest a.k.a. duan wu jie. Where's my dumpling??!! Oh no, no dumpling! I called home and ask the same question. Mum and dad say no dumpling cause the dumb arses in Luyang pek yao in their Ko Chong price. Sis says she's on call, too busy to even bother to know what date it is. Bro said so it's Duan Wu Jie and what?! And I'd say, I shall have some dumplings tomorrow! Oh people you guys better organise something to lighten up the spirit of Qu Yuan herel! Happy duan wu jie out there!

So it's the end of your exam, and I have every reason to miss you even more... Enjoy your trip out there! Take care. Hope we will get in touch when we are at home, or even before you leave.

So my phone beeped, Siew Wen is coming. I'm so dead. Nothing planned for her. Where on earth am I gonna chuck her pillow?

So it's another mundane day. It's only thursday, and I still have Osteoporosis as well as Bone and Soft Tissue lectures tomorrow. Blardae, the Bone and Soft Tissue lectures will last for 2 hours!!

Source of picture: http://www.chinatownology.com/images/dumpling.gif

So it's exactly one month from now...

Roti Canai, Nasi Lemak, Char Kuey Tiaw, Hokkien Mee, Prawn Mee, Satay, Cendol, O Jian, Cai Dao Kueh, Soto, Char Peng, Char Mee, Wa Tan Ho, Tuaran Mian, Sin Chew Bee Hoon, Sweet Sour Fish, Shark Fin Soup, Bao Yu, Chicken Rice, Duck Rice, Chao Sao Sa Nyuk Fan, Goreng Pisang, Durian, Manggis, Zha Ji Kuai, Lemon Teh Ping, Teh Tarik, Tenom coffee, aik chong kopi, bubble tea, San Se Nai Cha, Lo Mee, Ko Chong, Wang Li Bing, Ai Yi Ping, Kuih Lapis, sikui, papaya, pisang emas (sini pisang montel too big), bambangan, hinava, mum's cooking, I will fight for you worthy friends, wait for me. We shall PARTAEEEE!!!

The element X and Y

So, let’s say there are 2 elements, X and Y. X does not have a fix shape. X expands and contract rather fast. Under good care, it can be melted easily. X has a strong reaction with element gold, silver and diamond. X is very attracted to Y. X is often regarded as very expensive and useful aesthetical wise. The maintenance cost of X is very high. Being a very explosive element, inexperience individuals are not encouraged to own any of element X and for those who do, always handle with care.

Y also doesn’t have a shape. Y often changes shapes and melt according to element X. General chemical tests suggest that Y has very strong reaction with ethanol contents and nicotine. Without presence of X, Y is often regard as nothing but useless. As of now, there are only a handful of good products out of element Y. There are, however, high concentration of substandard product of Y.

So what's X and Y? Chem Students? Com'on!! ;)

Source of picture: http://www.corrosionsource.com/handbook/periodic/periodic_table.gif

RESIT Tutorials for HBoM

This was the content of the email that I received a while ago with the titled subject:

"Dear Student,
We hope that you have successfully passed the two HBoM examination papers. While the results will not be available to you until early June, we do know from previous years that some students will need to resit in July. For those students we organise revisions tutorials before the end of the summer term. Below is the timetable for these sessions this year. Please make a note of these dates, particularly if you think that there is a risk that you may not have passed a sit paper.
Best wishes"

I had the shock of my life!! Thank God, crossing my fingers tight now =( will I make it? Faith! Faith!!! Why are you thinning fast now?!! You know I need you the most now, oh please, stay...

I wish...

...I wish I could unremember you, unmiss you, unthink about you, unhear all the things said. It's only been months, but I can't toss it away. It's just too precious. 好姐妹？

Someone's bf been capped =P

I thought it would be interesting to blog this =P Pity him... (or her?)

yeah.. i felt sorry for your bf... hehe

My dream PC (as of 25/5/2009)

After googled a bit, here's a dream PC that I would like to have:

2 X Intel® Core™ i7 processor Extreme Edition 965 (3.20Ghz, 8MB L2 cache, 6.4GT/sec)
Soundblaster™ XFi™ Titanium PCIe card
32MB 1067 MHz Tri Channel DDR3 SDRAM [8x4G]
Hard Drive: 4 TB Serial ATA (4x1TB) 7200Rpm Dual HDD Config Raid 0
3 X SLI 1GB DDR3 nVidia® GeForce™ GTX285 graphics card
Killer NIC™ Gaming Card
Blu-Ray RW

And of course the other basics such as power supply, a promising cooling solution, card reader, bluetooth 3.0 (not in market yet), wireless full N-card, and etc...

So, the question is, how much would it cost? how am I gonna afford it? and what the h*ll am I gonna do with such powerful machine? Ok here's the answer to the third question, I want my house to be completely controlled by this giant (ie. electrical appliances, lights, etc.). Something like the one Iron Man movie has.

Too far fetch? duh... ok, I should start studying now, STOP DREAMING!!!!

The intolerable KIASU Syndrome

I just can't understand, why some people just can't stop stressing that I only have one more to go??!!! Yes, I do have only one more to go, and it's quite some days away, but hell, you're NOT IN MY COURSE!!! How on earth would you understand?!!!! You're not even me!!! I'm not some genius who read things once and save it in my mind forever!!! I know my own capability! I have my own reasons to start early! and it's NONE OF YOUR F*cKing business!!!! dew!

And you think you F*cKing own the library? Only you and your friends that have exams in a few days time deserve the library spaces?!!! Come on, I'm not sitting on your back to do my revision ok! What do you mean we are fighting with you guys? who are genuinely having exams? What fight?!!! Don't you realise we are doing different course? and what do you mean genuinely having exams?! So the 11th is NOT A GENUINE EXAM?!! Ours maybe merely MCQs DIQs or TF, but they are not some primary school kid stuff done by a university student! At the very least, to me, I think it's no easy task!

Cut the crap man, least we are not as KIASU AS YOU people!!! Always asking about other's scores! and comparing our degrees with yours!! I mean it when I say I don't wanna talk about it! So why ask?!!! Well, if you like it, I'd like to make it clear to YOU: Yes, yours is just a B. Sc!!! JUST A BSC!!! and mine is something that carries extra salutation in front! So what? you jealous? go crack your ass to work on entering this field then! and stop complaining that you do the job while we claim the honour! There's a reason of why we study 5 years and you 3! Shut up! We have got the authority and you don't! So don't compare!

Why wanna say which job is more noble than the other?!!! we depend on each other in this world ok! Even the scavengers are noble, at least to help you this bunch of snobbish vagina clean up your feces! You think what, only educated people deserve to live on earth? We all do ok!

And so what if my course cover the sense of humanity? After all we are dealing with humans, it is perfectly sensible to learn such stuff, it is only people like you who label them as rubbish not sensible to realise the importance of it while working your ass off just for the science stuff.

I'm not discriminating anyone or any course here, but I just hope you will understand, what we are doing is just the same as everyone else. it's just a freaking degree! What's the fuss about that?!!! Why wanna compare?!!!

p/s: I don't mean to insult anyone taking Bsc, but just this group of individuals that can't stop comparing, can't stop prooving the point that they are having exams!

Selamat Jalan TRS

Bon voyage Miss!

p/s: just remember to send my regards to the char kuey tiaw, satay, durian, dim sum and the wonders of that place I call home for me... and STILL NYAMPAH!!! hehehehe

So, when's my turn la? People finish exam, my 9-5s haven't finish. People start planning their summer, I start my preperation for the 11th June. Apa la ini?!!! What a life!

I DECLARE, TODAY IS MY ANNUAL HIBERNATION DAY. and I wish every other day was today! ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

Virtual DJ Mixer

Got his as a 20 days trial treat... Mixing music on my lappie without turntable is not too far fetch afterall! yay!!!!!
Taking this Dj as a hobby won't be that bad isn't it? Aite, I'm off exploring this awesome treat! So, who's party am I hosting next?? hehe

Screw MCBoM!! I shall burn it all!! Burn!!! Burn!!! Burn!!!

Weathering home

Finally, the weather reminds me of home, well I'm not referring to the temperature, but at the very least, I can go out in shorts and flip flops... It's been raining on and off these days, the sky is moody (well a few days before it was so sunny that even 7pm looks just like 12pm, and it almost got me late to appointments in the evenings). Each time I look out the window, I could vividly recall the Sunday mornings where I could just laze around with the aircond on at lowest temperature back at home, and here, opening the window wide just made me feel the same. Ok, I miss home.

Seriously, should I put a countdown for going back or my exam? or the day my results are revealed?!!! Gosh, it really get me on my nerves each time I think of it. SCARED SHIT!!!!!

Pray pray pray...

And all the best to those sitting for exams around this time of the year! Gud luck!

So it's cardiomyopathies

Good news, indeed, good news. And I pretty much doubt the lecture will be covered in later years. Yay! Exam short by one lecture, of course happy la!!!! Still, it's just one lecture. Why can't it be like...er, one whole chunk of lectureS?? too far-fetch perhaps. And what would happen if the patient that I'm presented with comes with whatever that is in the lectures????!!! Cheeezzeee, I better check out what topic it is, hang on...

Oh crap! It's on Cardiomyopathies. Yes it is crap!!! Cause the lecture notes is hell only one page like this:
Oh yes, I *will* understand what it's all about with this economical (save ink) and environmental friendly (save paper) set of note. Thank you, Mr lecturer! Probably that explains our double digit position in Guardian!

Got My Sphymomanometer!!!

Yay!! Finally, it's here! Ok, I should probably get back on my CVS instead of playing with this thing. Anyhow, here it is:

Aneroid Sphygmomanometer set. It comes with a bag!!! Though the bag is... er... nevermind...

Inflating the cuff up to 280mmHg. I wanna try 300 but it's really not a good idea considering the pain.

And my veins bulge out like this, you still want 300? nah... no thanx...

Positioning the stethoscope at brachial artery to listen for systolic and diastolic moments. The patient should extend (straighten) their arm instead of as shown in the picture (did that because I have to hold the camera!).

Oh and if you're wondering how to use it? well, to make it simple, inflate the cuff up about 200mmHg (assuming the one which you are listening to falls between the normal distribution of blood pressure), position the stethoscope as shown above on the brachial artery, in which at this point there should be no sound. Deflate the cuff slowly and at certain point, you will hear the weird "tuk tuk" sound, that's the systolic pressure, note that down. And as you continue to deflate, at certain point, the sound will disappear, that's the diastolic pressure. Note that down too.

The concept behind it? I'm just to lazy to put them down in words, but bottom line, systolic pressure is the pressure when you heart contracts and diastolic is when your heart relax. That's why you get X/Y (ie. 120/80) when you get your blood pressure measured in hospital. X would be your systolic and otherwise. Also, to have a blood pressure of 120/80 is rather odd. In fact most teens' readings are below that. Probably 110/75? Girls may even have readings below that. The 120/80 is just the arbitrary value.

And if at this point, you still wonder what is a sphygmomanometer, it's the device to measure your blood pressure. Normally it should come with the mercury bar but I bought this one which uses an analog meter considering the price and risk of me spilling or breaking the mercury bar.

Aite, should probably get on with study now. Excited!

The life that awaits me

"Exams....

Just to clear up the rumours, we aim to release the exam results by 3pm May 
20 via Blackboard"

Got this email from Kat. Was it really a relief? Or is it just another seemed-long wait to know the truth. The truth about my efforts during the last two terms, the truth about my level of competence in MCBoM and HBoM. Year one's almost drawing its finale, and I'm still in the midst of no where. Cardiovascular lessons are already half way through, and all I did was anticipating the sphygmomanometer that I bought a couple of days ago to arrive, to practise my clinical skills, when I am not required to do so. And to remind me that I'm still lost, I just found out what's the difference between Stroke volume and Cardiac output a couple of days ago, when I should have known it weeks ago.

I need prayers!!!! and Lucks now!!!!

Spent my weekend, no, burnt my weekend watching Ampang Medikal. I would say it's the Malaysian version of Greys but the point is, it portrays what would most likely to happen during our HO or as students in UK name it, F1. Well, I'm not sure how far the truth goes in the series but as far as I'm concerned, the show is portraying things my siblings shared with me through out the years. 36 hours non-stop working, then you get a 5pm to 7am break, then another 36 hours. You probably have to sustain that in a few weeks interval and it will last for 2 long HO years. Gosh, what a life awaits me. I really hope to stay forever as a student now.

And as an extra ingredient, a HO will have to sustain the pressure from the ones up above him or her. I could just imagine myself standing beside the bed don't know what to do when a patient suddenly drop dead right before my own eyes. And just when I was about to doubt more, the nurse's plot came along. Yes, nurses are perhaps our saviors in the hospitals. At most times, they have been in that field for ages, but because of the word nurse, they are no where near this 5 years course's reward. Seriously, don't they deserve to be called Medical Officers as well? Well, I'm not saying ordinary nurses but for those who have serve the field for ages, of one that would think like a doctor does, one that posses equivalent level of knowledge. Back to the point, the nurses are likely to tell us what to do especially when we have just started our HO tenure.

Conclusion? Learn your lessons well and make sure you have your skills at fingertips! Ok, I'm telling myself.

p/s: the post earlier entitled "Random" was a subplot of the show that make me ponder more about relationship in the hospital.